Lousy 91 Daily Blog

天使の日曜日(´∀｀)(´∀｀)

2011-11-07T15:27:00.002+08:00

Finally clear the ef~ fandisc liao =D

This fandisc include 3 AFTER story , 3 IF story..
after-story occurs months after the previous game and basically saying how the characters are doings.. however i super-like how the producer make it in the sense that all the stories start concurrently with the same linear starting...

I was talking to my buddy the other time on how nice it will be to include different character perspective in the story (thx to the trilogy i read, Noughts & Crosses) and the ELSE/IF arc.. well, he agree that it'll be interesting and complicated as well..

And now, I completed this, with the very genre/concept im talking about~~ wooah~
Oh yeah.. Chihiro's fanboy will be like FUFUFUFU.. when they saw some chihiro's character get sligthly bold and random ... LOL

Nonetheless, let's jump RIGGGGGHHHHTTTTT into IF Yuuko arc.
When that accident didn't happen.. when Miki didnt get into trouble..
my heart went... FUUUUUUUUU the car is COMING... SIAMMMMM
then it just ran past and nothing happened..

and so... her story continues... and she give birth to her daughter, Himura Sei..火村聖.. the very gift of christmas =D

Nonetheless, this is a special magician who appeared half-way, in search for the angel's feather... 美人ですよねぇｗｗ～

Trial...?

2011-11-04T22:28:00.004+08:00

Time flies and I truly agree on this
It been 2 months since I posted, which was about me enlisting on 7 Sept.
And yet, today marked the end of PTP phase and the beginning of BMT phase.
Exactly 2 months ago, others was laughing their ass off at me when I got my confinement week

However today, i'm the one who laugh at the new recruits who are trying to get accustomed to their army life, while I was about to book out.

Such vicious life... haiz...

Well, this isn't the main topic of the day...
over the past few months.. i been brooding on whether how much i will change during NS..
over the past 2 months... i already finished my ptp phase.. and now looking back,

did i really change?
did i really matured?
did i grew?

It's been months since that... and during the past 2 months in camp.
She keeps coming to my mind... everyday in fact...every moment...even now.
I know i cannot stay like this forever, it's time to move on, but i couldn't...

I couldn't forget those times we had , maybe this is just one-sided,
but i find it impossible to revert to the old me anymore...impossible...
like many say.. that is really an experience for me.. c'mon get over and done with .. kb!!

ah fk...for some reason, my words im trying doesn't seems to keep up with my brain..
every word i type.. she just appears.. just like in many of the nights i had...
and during moments which i persevere through my marching, physical punishment and runs..
a simple image of her, makes me smile during punishment
makes me forget that hard day i had...
serious...
fk that...

why did she told me that i wasn't mature enough and telling me that i'll be mature during NS....
what did she means by that? an excuse?
actually i already know the answer... just that im unable to move on...
alright enough.. ranting all this right here.. right after my book out.. is indeed immature..

Anyways...the life inside, made me realize the potential of human being under test..
everyone have the capabilities to outdo themselves.

For example, this special platoon mate of mine had earn my respect...his mind is really strong despite his frail size, i never see him giving up before. Always trying his best, or at least putting in the effort. Yep i can see that he's changed (though a little bit at a time..)

That's however is better than others, who prefer the easy way out, who whines during PT and trying their best to slack and give excuse.. and i was one of them. lol maybe my leg injury was just an excuse for me to run slower than the rest...

Pardon me for the strange flow of this post.. after all, i couldn't think really straight when my mind is all about her...
alright guys... ciao~
~

HAPPY ENLISTING~!!

2011-09-06T12:52:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone~
Sorry for the long and infrequent updates on my blog, but seems I'm always in contact with my readers.. so it's alright =D

Tomorrow will Sept 7, the day which I'll turn into man as I'll be enlisting into the army and defend singapore(: (my ass rofl..)

Anyways.. lots of things had happened while i soul-searching for the past few months.
I've experienced lots of stuffs which i didn't use to.
Like furthering my programming, pushing my jap to pre-advanced (yeah, today's mark the final day for my jap ==) and taking up a translation project and outings.. as well as catching up with my lecturers in np, as well as getting them to write me my recommendation letters.

actually nothing much LOL.
But i wanna give my thanks to many people who helped me along the way. Really thank you!!
Nonetheless, as usual, anime/drama DID accompany me till now. bwahaha.. and im sure it'll continue to =D

To make sure that I wouldn't regret before going in .. i played this EARLIER and clear this arc..
DAMMIT. GROWN UP KURURU IS HAWTTTTTTTT!!!!
Bwahaha.. now i can go in thinking abt her for the next 2 weeks =P.

There's too much I wanna say, but i can't any word for it ==
Alright then .. see you guys~!

Translation Update!!

2011-07-21T13:16:00.002+08:00

Lol.. apart from the translation, i juz finished TITA ROUTE!!!
Tita FLAWWWWWWWWLESS Brandt >___<
i dunno why, but i really love tsundere and ojousama ... bwahahhaa!!

Apparently.. she is sweetttttt... superb dere at the end .. lolx
what can i say about her... hmm her seiyuu is really good and her voice is very ojousama like.. hah.. though the her arc is abit dry, but unlike Yukina, she give you 2 H-scene instead of 1 lolx... i still don't get it why i didn't unlock Yukina's.. maybe need to finish the whole game first... lol

WAITTT.. why am I talking about other girls =___=..
alright Tita's really cute >w< do play her arc (even though you might not get what happened in the middle)

Meanwhile as for Nursery Rhyme the game itself..
after finishing both Yukina and Tita arc.. i find that toward the ending, it's very different..as in the story just got twisted... totally not related to the earlier ones... for example U MAKE A CRUSH FOR YUKINA? wtf? game company who did that is like scoring a OG for themselves.. as for Tita, something which i don't get it... is they didn't talk abt the company and her ambition itself.. and how Kaito come and disturb her for the selection.. wait.. why is even Kaito there.. he seems to know Tita well.. but it's not written in the game =___=

hence, the story isn't well elaborate...(sadly)
my next character ... hmm Makina.. always love how lively she was.. then follow by Kururu.. wait i mustn't touch Kururu .. >D

Meanwhile, on my birthday itself.. the trial translation will be releasing on that day weee~!!
gotta prepared the graphic + scripts now =3=

A Channel

2011-06-25T21:52:00.004+08:00

Just finished watching A-Channel..
to be precise.. i finished it 30mins ago.. lol

Actually, i doesn't mean to pick this series for this season firstly. Just that it's kinda interesting and when i thought that it's going to be something like lucky star, but i was wrong.

A channel isn't full of gags like Nichijou, neither does it contains any much storyline like K-On!!
What caught my attention is that it portrayed a perfectly normal life fantastically.
Really a slice of life.. even with all those few character.. 4 main characters in fact.. wait.. how do you even say which character is main? lol.. i dunno maybe Run, cuz she brought everyone together?

Meanwhile, the character designs are pretty simple yet it shows a lot.
Hahah, for some reason, i watched the last few episodes without sub. And im surprised that it's look better without it haha.. not like i don't understand them >____<

Meanwhile, i have taken a liking on Yuuko lolx...
Haha.. seriously lurv how Minako kotobuki portrays her.. realli good (Y)
lurv her kansai-ben and her behaviors.. everything rofl...

first time i actually like someone so well-developed.. fufufu im not into loli anymore =D

oh yeah btw .. guess what? her seiyuu is same age as me.. wait in fact... YOUNGER THAN ME.. guess i'll be marking sept 17 down on my calendar lol.. really made me think what people around our age are doing ... HMMM

sore jya byebye~!!

2011-06-23T21:51:00.002+08:00

very much alive.. and recently i been helping my dad for his works.. for the last 2 weeks in fact.. and somehow i fell sick after chionging straight for 1weeks + and still ongoing.. ==

nth much actually.. juz that my body is like burning now and flu and runny nose.. shd be alright after i get down and sleep hah..

meanwhile today is 23rd june.. and 1 more day before my friend come back after being locked into the tekong lololol... seems like i'll be asking whether how's his life when he came out =D

and 2 more days before cosfest.. and probably he's not going to have a fuck.. so well hah.. but i'll be heading down to downtown east for this year.. after missing last yr COSFEST.. hah damn why everytime is downtown.. can't they change the location.. its blooooddddyyyy far ==

well.. currently feel sick and feverish.. so i dont realli have the mood to blog..
i shall stop here and continue watching my kami nomi =DD

im still very alive..

2011-06-06T23:10:00.002+08:00

lately many things had happened.. but im still rotting myself away at home
not realli.. went out for jap lesson at ikoma, cca .. mentoring still continue =D

most of the time.. i spent it on learning english lol.. so funny that i eventually start brushing up on my english ==. yeah need that for my translation. But that's doesn't mean that my conversation skills have improved lolx.. NET language is always have to be NET language .. but those chim chim english =3=..

Meanwhile, just waiting for the hacker to email me back the scripts and there's a final QC and soon the trial translation will be done (YIPEEE~!!!)
While meanwhile.. started translating the main game scripts liao... 30k more lines to go?! Wtf lolx
but my speed is roughly 2hr for 170lines or so... and somehow it'll be fast on conversation =D

This translation task.. somehow brushed up my japanese, as in listening and reading and understanding. More importantly.. how to piece it back again.

I'd spent 2 months on it liao... well i don't expect anything much except treating it like an learning experience to learn jap... =DD (But though... deep in my heart.. i demand $$ for it LAWL)

Meanwhile.. i finished playing EF~ a fairy tale of the two... really awesome story which i'll be reviewing when i have the time =D

With that.. 2 more days for my best friend to enter NS ><

2011-05-20T14:51:00.000+08:00

*giggle* too >___<"

recentlyyyy

2011-05-18T00:52:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. I'm still very much alive...
Recently been watching fairy tail.. and for some reasons, the whole show is quite manly.. and it did bring me to tears almost every 3-6 episodes.. yep from both LOLZ and T__T factors..

Something i realized that most awesome show have these factor which made the anime epic.. Firstly.. a narrator(lolz moments and stuffs.. remind me of hayate..)
A pet/ lucky item
and Norio Wakamoto ...(yeah.. he did appeared...)

Fairy Tail is .. surprisingly.. i wouldn't get tired of watching it.. even though everything is repeating.. but it's the bond between all the guild members and their development.. which made the whole series worth watching.. characters getting stronger and weaker.. and sad and happy.. yeah that's what a guild shd be..

Apart from that .. i started watching this

Eve no Jikan (Time of Eve)
It's a 6 episode series which got released online over a period of time.
The story is about how human and android living together. And there's is certain ethic issues arising.. like how Robots is different from human.. and whats to do if a robot's AI made him to become more and more like human.. despite being that robot should always protect humans and stuffs..

Eve no Jikan is actually the cafe name where android and human are able to hang out without any discrimination .. meaning that its a cafe where you hardly differentiate robot and human and robot can talk freely.. (kinda scary huh..?)

The story is short.. but it just made me think whether are human relying too much on Robot?
For example... whats if next time.. all our foods is harvest and grown by robot.. automatically.. is it still considered as food?

Next.. hmm some translation and coding for my current projects..
since i couldn't rot whole day at home.. i start brushing up my japanese and english..
reading translation and translation .. and how the flow of the translation is more important than the accuracy of the translation..
Also.. learning to work in teams... here are the updates..

Hmm.. the first batch(without QC nor further translation..) super raw translation.. of the game
Hmm.. coding the formatter which output the translated scripts into finalized copy..
actually.. this wouldn't even exist if im not lazy enough haha...
laziness just made me wanna automate everything =3=

cya~

2011-05-03T16:17:00.000+08:00

Coding and codings.... this is what im doing nowaday lol..

2011-04-30T00:31:00.001+08:00

######################### Script ##########################

Total Dialogues : 1644
System Dialogues : 556 33.82%
Characters Dialogues : 1088 66.18%

Total Choices : 3

######################### Characters =##########################

No Character Script Count Overall(against all Scripts) Overall(against all Characters)
1 男Ｂ 8 0.49% 0.74%
2 静真 393 23.91% 36.12%
3 有希奈 169 10.28% 15.53%
4 ティータ 93 5.66% 8.55%
5 ？？？ 44 2.68% 4.04%
6 凛 17 1.03% 1.56%
7 真紀奈＆有希奈 1 0.06% 0.09%
8 アズ 58 3.53% 5.33%
9 フィル 19 1.16% 1.75%
10 真紀奈 174 10.58% 15.99%
11 ぬいぐるみ 6 0.36% 0.55%
12 藤吉郎 16 0.97% 1.47%
13 由里亜 39 2.37% 3.58%
14 クルル 36 2.19% 3.31%
15 ケン 5 0.30% 0.46%
16 男Ａ 10 0.61% 0.92%

######################### Scripts Breakdown =##########################
Sys = System | Char = Characters | Dial = Dialogues
No Scripts Name Sys.Dial Char.Dial Choice.Dial Total (Against Al)%

1 00_001_0.txt 75 79 0 154 9.37%
2 00_002_0.txt 67 131 1 198 12.04%
3 00_003_0.txt 62 160 1 222 13.50%
4 00_004_0.txt 75 159 1 234 14.23%
5 00_005_0.txt 21 54 0 75 4.56%
6 00_006_0.txt 90 232 0 322 19.59%
7 00_007_0.txt 166 273 0 439 26.70%

2011-04-29T15:33:00.001+08:00

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45 Things to do before you graduate (CheckList~)

2011-04-16T16:06:00.002+08:00

Hmm, this is my checklist for things that i did (BEFORE I GRADUATED FROM NP in 1 month time~).. Things that i did shall be highlighted in my beautiful red color~

1. Cycle to school

Not advisable if you live in Punggol, Changi or Johor Bahru. If you do however, one day you will be able to tell your kids tales about how hard life was back when you were in NP, “I used to cycle to school…sometimes”.

2. Ride a buggy

Who does not love the idea of being on a motorised vehicle while laughing at those that have to walk over NP’s hilly terrain? One can get on a buggy if you are one of the students that do their attachment in school (or are a friend of theirs).

3. Go overseas

Went to JAPAN OSAKA~!!

Part of the NP learning experience is to send every student overseas at least once on a fun and enjoyable experience! Better still, plan one and escape the watchful eyes of your lecturers.

4.Roll down all hills

This might hurt, depending on how much clothes you wear and the amount of stones you encounter on the way down.

5. Eat in all the canteens

Wouldn’t it be sad if you spent all three years in NP if you only ate at a few particular locations? Canteens 1 & 2 have lots of variety and Canteens 3 & 4, though smaller offer some great food.

6. Get at least a Bronze CCA Achievement

CCA points do help if you do intend to further your education at a university.
A bronze needs at least 36 points, 56 for silver and a whooping 72 for a Gold. Time is running out! You also need to chalk up 12, 24 and 48 ARLS points respectively. Good luck.

7. Watch movies at the library

The NP library contains many movies that will ensure hours and hours of entertainment. Pick a title and head down to make the most of your school fees.

8. Create your own ghost story

Lying about the ghostly little girl at Canteen 1 might seem silly now, but it will go a long way in scaring future freshmen. Leave your legacy behind in the form of a creepy tale.

9. Make a dedication on Radio Heatwave

Dedicate a song on Singapore’s first campus station to your loved ones! No need for those costly SMSes that cost 30 cents each! Just tell the friendly DJs what you want.

10. Stay overnight in school

Whoever leaves school without spending a night over? Unbeknown to most, NP is an awesome place to lie down and gaze at stars.

11. Class photos!

Relive this long forgotten tradition of secondary school days. Even better, get a “Batch photo”, consisting of all your friends from the same cohort!

12. Visit Union Farm Eating House

This quaint little place is tucked snugly right between Maju Camp and SIM. It’s an eatery – There! Bet you always passed it on the bus and wondered what it was.

13. Take up a second language

Japanese, Korean and French – you name it! All available for your learning pleasure ; register at the School Of Interdisciplinary Studies (IS) for these Language Enrichment Programmes.

14. Visit the principal’s office

When you were young, this probably meant a caning or some serious disciplinary action. Not to worry, Mr Chia Mia Chiang does not dish out capital punishment. He is, however, very friendly and is more than happy to hear your feedback.

14. LAN party

It is possible for you to use NPNet for multi-player LAN games. According to clause 5b of NP’s Intranet Policy, this is allowed only if your games are part of your “polytechnic course, academic and administrative tasks.” Don’t say we didn’t warn you!

15. Plant a tree

You could plant it because you care for the environment, or because you simply enjoy saying, “Hey, look, it’s the tree I planted 20 years ago.”

16. Time Capsule

We have not tried it yet, but imagine making your personal Time Capsule and burying it in a slab of concrete (Think the soon to be renovated Block 72), your legacy will stay in the school for decades to come!

17. IS Reunion

Remember those neglected buddies from Sports & Wellness and CATS in your freshman year? If you guys are from different courses and haven’t met up for the last few years, now’s the time to do it before it’s too late!

18. Scale Bukit Timah Hill

Some of us might not come to the Bukit Timah area after graduation – we will have little reason to climb Singapore’s highest point. So do it while it still’s convenient.

19. Have your name appear in the school paper

Fame! Glory! How many people ever get their names imprinted and filed into the school’s archives for the rest of eternity? Now, you just have to do something newsworthy enough that we can report on.

20. Swim at least once

We would advise you to swim there in swimwear like everyone else but you’ll probably derive more pleasure jumping in fully clothed - just remember to empty your pockets.

21. Visit Gymwerkz

Keep in shape! (Even if you are kind of tubby, do remember that round is also a shape.) Gymwerkz boasts over a sprawling 8,000 square feet of state-of-the-art equipment.

22. Visit the school landmarks

They’re like tourist attractions, really. No one leaves NP without visiting the Yellow Submarine, Green Mall and the legendary Atrium.

23. Drink at Halo bar

Now you can claim that you drank alcohol in school (almost)! Wooo!

24. Teach Spammers A Lesson

Ever received multiple emails telling you to buy something that you are not interested in? Give the spammers a taste of their own medicine! Show them the meaning of spam, literally.

25. Start a CCA

Just grab a reasonable amount of people to start a CCA. Imagine being known as a “founder” of a CCA!

26. Join a camp!

Make friends and learn cheers. There are numerous camps in NP – the Sports camp, CCA camps and of course, the Freshman Orientation Camp (FOC).

27. Race around the campus

Running around the campus panting like a dog is not glamorous, but it will help you discover how great NP really is.

28. Watch the sunrise

29. Watch the sunset

30. Have karaoke sessions in a lecture hall

Surround sound speakers were meant to be more than loudhailers for lecturers! Help them realise their full potential.

31. Visit the summit point of NP

The highest point of NP is the 9th storey of block 52. Put a flag of your choice there.

32. Visit the lowest point of NP

And…. You guessed it! It’s the underpass between Block 1 and the Admin Field.

33. Take the NP shuttle buses

What can we say? Free transport! NP’s shuttle buses leave from Hougang, Clemeni, Jalan Anak Bukit and last but certainly not least, Woodlands.

34. Dress up as Halloween monster

There are better ways to attract attention than putting up your collar. Be King Kong or Godzilla and spend a day in school rampaging through shocked faces.

35. Get in the director’s list at least once

Just to show others you are a genius –you have to at least be in the top 10 per cent of your cohort to get into the list.

36. Obey NP’s One And Only Traffic Light

Admit it, everyone jaywalks. For once, just press the nice round button and wait for the green man to come on. Then cross like a good student.

37. Throw water bombs in school

Good things should be shared with people. Water bombs are good things.

38. Take the lift from the Atrium to Library.

Yes, it does take ages to go down and it’s for the disabled. But using it when no one needs it can’t possibly hurt anyone, can it?

39. Eat at Bukit Timah

Keep the tradition alive! Opposite Beauty World lies a treasure trove of sumptuous food. The row of shophouses was and will continue to be a popular haunt of NP students of the past, the future and…the present (which includes you!)

40. Mark your territory

Yes, pee in all the toilets you can find in NP. They come in different sizes and with their own special aromas.

41. Play soccer in unlikely places

Yes, we’ve said it. Imagine scoring a goal in the Convention Centre, or sending a ball whizzing past scores of people at OurSpace@72. Just remember to be careful.

42. Donate Blood

350 units of blood are needed each day meet the needs for hospital operations. Currently, the Singapore Red Cross only receives a average of 250 units each day. The greatest gift of all is the gift of life. It’s just a needle. Get over it.

43. Profess Your Love

Have you got unfinished business with someone - tell him or her. If not now, when?

44. Don’t get caught!

If you are thinking of doing something that is not allowed in the school, don’t do it. Just remember it’s not an offence unless you get caught.

im still alive of course~!!

2011-04-10T17:15:00.002+08:00

Its been quite awhile ever since i blogged.. realli 1 month or so..

tons of things happened.. both sad and happy stuffs.. let start off with the sad stuffs..

my ahma went to the heaven a month ago.. best ahma i could ever have.. still remember how loud she used to talk on the phone whenever she called me.. hah old people tends to talk very loudly.. and how i never knew that she would fly to heaven so fast.. yep.. at least im happy that she is able to pass away peacefully with all her children and grandchildren..

hmm.. with that.. my friends did comfort me and stuffs.. realli thanks them hah.. and of course.. im really doing okay .. so don't worry =D .. however.. im just got pissed with some of my friends' words when they asked me whether i'm okay or not..

whenever i replied that .. "don't worry.. im okay.."
they would replied and said "if u're okay then this just means that you're not close to your ahma.."

haha .. seriously.. FUCK YOU GUYS FOR THAT.. okay = dont bother? nice logic.. nonetheless like hell i should care about that.. maybe its time to jerk those bastard back when its their turn (:

At the same time when my ahma pass away.. japan got struck by the earthquake, causing a massive tsunami and followed by the nuclear radiation issues.. one hella shitstorm .. and i was watching NHK for 3-4 days straight.. kinda hellish to see the situation over there.. be strong japan.. i'll be helping to raise some fund through my cca event "Hope for Japan"

the next few weeks was rotting away myself in Dragon Nest.. a korean mmorpg which is kinda like Dragonica .. even the name say so hah.. yep .. already wasted 2 weeks on it.. well im playing on the China Server and managed to survive through and learned couples of their lingos ^__^V

follow-up was the Mentoring Hand - Over ceremony which was just ended yesterday .. hah spent like 1-2 weeks of preparation and its finally end up DAMN SUCCESSFULLY.. hah im graduating and stepping down.. letting the new committee to took over haha..

bascially .. my role over there is some ahpek involving in the skit and seems like it went pretty well.. especially everyone start calling me ah gong.. but anyway the story they wrote are GOOD .. hah a twisted fairytale story .. (somehow remind me of Alice , The madness Return)

earlier on (2hr ago..) i juz finished watching Social Networking.. the movie about facebook.. and im kinda inspired by how facebook was created and the shytstorm it got involved.. hah .. seriously.. if that the path im taking.. then im gladly to.. in fact that is something i want ..to change the world .. one step at a time..

then earlier earlier on .. hmm was reading google translation toolkit .. basically a translation program on a cloud which is used to translate things side by side.. after writing the codes for the mentoring webby and couples of coding over the past few weeks .. i've learnt about cloud computing and hows application works together.. hmm reading google toolkit was kinda random.. i guess i want to get involve with some game translation after all (after going through the translation forums of Dragon Nest..) hah ..

maybe start off with underground community for VN?

lastly.. the time before NS.. i guess i wouldn't be working .. in fact i don't see the needs of doing something i don't like.. lol .. on contrary .. im running EXTREMELY LOW on pocketmoney .. with 40 buck for 2 months.. =___=

whats matter is to finish up what i always want to do in my poly life.. yep!!

Things to do

2011-03-12T22:05:00.002+08:00

Seriously.. im been rotting myself at home with Roseonline/ fking useless dota matches which i keep winning.. and chatting with ppl who i dont even feel like chatting.. yeah facebook and stuffs..

Procrastinating for 3 fucking weeks is not funny.. i myself couldn't bear to do nothing during holiday.. so i kinda raged and deleted garena/ warcraft and roseon.. yep .. i knew that this wouldn't chnage much .. but i believe it does deter me from wasting my youth on them (damn.. im going to be 20s too FUUUUUUU)

with that .. i shall do these tml :

1) Redesign database (due to freaking lots of problem i had while creating new ones_
--problems caused : similar term but with too many naming system
-> result in confusion /and hard to implement

2) RE(reverse engineer) the database to provide me with updated design
-- easier for me to look and manipulate the structure.

3) implement studentID-to-studentName feature
-- basically my database for helperlist only store the studentID of the helpers.. thats why when its display .. its hella messy .. and doesn't give u much details..

Pro : Less column, less redundancy.. Save space for database
con : require join and linkage to make sure that data is reasonable..

after implement this feature.. i believe that attendance part will be pretty much solved as well..

4) MISC***** enable add tag for Facebook feature..
seriously.. the problem i got from using ppl coees is that its hard to modify them =___=
i shall dig and work out how to ensure that user can input something which is not suggested.

5)MISC***** Clean up my coding and revalidate them with w3c validation to ensure that everything are bug free..
(IMPOSSIBLE actually.. especially when i include php to it =___=)

6) Upload everything to web server and test..

Yep.. thats will be what im doing for tomorrow haha..

meanwhile.. for my usual lifestyle which brice keep kpkb me on .. no worry i havent h zhugeliang yet =___= but going to.. damn my koihime musou is like calling for me " COME COME COME.. Clear the battles and girls =D" ^____^V

well.. lastly pray that everything will return to normal when i woke up tomorrow.. i dun wanna see another nightmare shyt happen to Japan .. (eg.. nuclear plant exploded again.. 9.9 earthquake struck elsewhere.. ppl dying .. and stuffs.. )
seriously.. i had enuff =____=

god knows why mother earth raging so much? luckily .. i manage to calm myself down with the skype conversation with my jap families.. phew~ .. but eveyrone worry abt the nuclear meltdown.. oh god .. please dont explode.. i havent went other part of japan yet T______T

with that .. bye ni~

Programming~

2011-03-11T20:07:00.002+08:00

Yeah.. finally manage to implement this.. hah another milestone for my webby ..
to make it short.. this is actually a beautiful integration of 2 web server and java ..
dynamic output in short.. hah

code goes to FCBKcomplete.. realli god people haha..

recently.. im been coding and programming until my friend and family asking me why am i doing that.. well.. im actually want to challenge myself that its is possible to create something useful out of nothing (probably electricity for using computer =D)

actually programming does train my brain, as i keep thinking and thinking of ways to solve the problem.. well my brain works like..

1) Problems occurs
2) Look for solution.. 5 Solutions found
3) Choose the best solution .. with the least impact on the system..
4) Execute.. and trial and error..

hah .. its kinda satsifying to resolve the issues after spending so much time on it .. its like math =D .. but then .. what i dont like is that.. i spend too much time for the solution .. 70% is do by myself.. others is simply seek for solution online and applied them into my web. Yep, i dont reinvent the wheel.. unless i want to make some customization .. hah .. but im sure one day ..i'll be able to understand how fan's program works and i shall create my own..

ahh fk.. even with all these coding + programming.. the images of her keep popping out from my mind here and then =___=.. blah .. blah blah ..

Recently..

2011-03-05T23:39:00.002+08:00

My msn got hacked.. my facebook too ..

=___=

Hope i get my account back ASAP =DD

Edelweiss Eiden Fantasia

2011-02-24T15:08:00.002+08:00

Just completed Edelweiss Eiden Fantasia Sakura (aka Umeko) Arc.

Edelweiss Eiden is about how a group of horny guys ended up in an alchemy island, studying together in a all-girl school. The timeline is between Edelweiss, after a few months of staying there, when one of their "fugly comrade" already found his girlfriend, making the rest wtf..

With that,the main lead had to really make his move to get one..

This review was written only after completing only Sakura arc.

Story : 7/10 (Sakura RUMMMMMBLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE)

OMG SAKURA >___<
Shyt, already fell in love with her.
Well.. she is really a sub-character in the first season.. but later turn 輝く、キラキラ☆彡━(ﾟ∀ﾟ)━!

Lots of unexpected twist and turn, despite knowing that she will end up liking him.. but the twists are really good. Especially how sakura actually challenged him to a match, betting that he WILL fell in love with her.. and how this match got into a betting game where Ran interfered it (as she don't want Sakura to win).

As a sub character, she realli suck at expressing her "love" to him.. but the love letter part is realli ... FUUUUU awesome.. can't remember how many time i actually repeat that part.. lolx
Too sweet to be true.. of course.. its wasn't written by her =___=.

Another twist of the story is about how she lost the match and how she thought kazushi had dumped her and how she vent all her frustration in a garbage hole deep inside the forest nearby.

The garbage hole contains a marble which is created using alchemy and its is used to absorb all the waste-material, kinda Eco huh? However, Sakura dumped all her feeling inside it ..thats when the marble start collecting her soul, making her turning more and more emotionless.. T^T

Soon, she couldn't remember how much she love him .. and losing her smile :/
With that.. kazushi ..charge into her classroom one day . while the fearsome teacher was teaching halfway ..

Everyone : WHAT?
Sakura : ...?
Everyone : kyaaa he gonna confess.. ~
Sakura : (looking at him..)
Kazushi : " I CHALLENGE YOU TO A MATCH"
Everyone : WHAT!!!!?!

Sakura accepted but she continued to pour her feeling into the marble.. and soon the marble couldn't take it and explode and turn into a large cherry blossom in the middle of the island. But epic is that .. all the petals contains her feeling and her screaming .. making everyone in the island knowing that she love kazushi .. woah >___<

Graphics : 7/10
basically.. its the same from edelweiss.. except she became fairer and SHINEEEEEEEEEEE☆

Music : 8/10
ashberry still good even hearing it the 2nd time .. haha do be surprise that they actually used Canon in D violin and piano during the ending...

Voice Actress : 10/10
Sorry.. but Sakura voice is realli GOOD..
i bet you'll be looping the love letter lawl.. =DDD

Game Engine : 7/10
Something that is different from the previous series is that.. the character mouth actually sync with their voice!! Really interesting as i keep looking at it.. wondering how it works.. hmm

Here's some Omake for you =D

Edelweiss Eiden Omake

2011-02-23T12:31:00.002+08:00

"A love letter which will screwed up my life.." - Kazushi

Lawl .. well basically in Edelweiss Eiden, there are two main path to choose from .. Sakura Rumble or Rin , Kuzushi and OOOOOO.. that's will affect the outcome inevitably..

Basically .. i choose the Sakura Rumble and its about how you trying to deny that you don't like Sakura, and how she trying to make you fell in love with her.. lawl..

hard to believe that there's actually her route.. sakura is like .. hmm Uiharu from railgun hah.. someone who u even consider as a ending =___=

Well.. didn't really want to start this without clearing all the route in Edelweiss.. but well .. i'll be playing that later .. so doesnt matter =DD

hah.. anyway .. will be writing a post abt edelweiss after i clear everything =D

2011-02-18T23:54:00.002+08:00

For the past 2 days.. i went to help my dad.. helping his friend who to renovate his new house in Jurong West. actually its closer to tuas and just beside NTU.

My friend was actually my math tuition teacher who managed to save my bad-ass math during primary 6.. few months before PSLE. Yeah over then i keep getting E for my Math as i keep failing my fraction.. YEAH At primary 6 .. i dun even know what is 1/4 + 1/6 or 3/4 * 5/6 .. =___= kinda fail..

but after going through his hard-core tuition .. managed to secure a B or so .. lolx.

Well.. lemme tell you something about himself.. he's a retired teacher and a christian .. a friendly guy who loves to help others while teaching them the path of true christian .. ever since the last time i saw him.. he got married somehow.. and thats made me went .______.

Well.. he bought a new 5-room flat.. yet he got no kids .. and the whole house is so damn big haha.. and guess whats he did to it? he planning to convert it into a tuiton centre.. with 1 room dedicated for studying .. 4 tables with nice lighting.. yesh table and chair only.. another room with 4 bunk beds.. planning to rent to students (probably NTU students) .. and i seriously love his study room... realli cosy and there is no distraction over there.. its like those individual library desk .. and u can mug the whole day ..

as for the living room.. he's still planning onto what he shd do with it.. probably turn one end into whiteboard .. and he can teach all his students =DD.. yeah .. the whole color scheme of the house is .. kinda colorful .. green .. light blue .. butter.. rosypink .. kewl .. definitely a house which i wan to own haha..

okay .. so he gotta rent a room out.. well .. he charged very cheap .. ard 100-200 per person for 1 mth .. thats realli cheap .. and not only they got to own a bed.. but also a desk!! .. realli good.. 200buck for 1 bedroom + study room .. with refrigerator (aka vending machine..)

Really considerate person aint he?

untitled and not meant to be read

2011-01-25T23:03:00.005+08:00

I gotta admit that today is the first time of life, spending 30 minutes or so in choosing my clothes and wore two layer, outer + t-shirt + some funny colored long pants to suit my t-shirt. In addition, i slept early for the past few days to make sure my face wouldnt be so that cui =___=

After spending some time in preparing for everything i need before i left, like tissue , fisherman fresh .. japanese material .. etc etc.. and the plan of the activities later on. Last but most importantly.. CASH $$$$

With that, i left at 12.40pm and hoping to reach there at 1.30. Fearing that i might be late, i told her to slowly prepare herself and take her time.. And end up waiting for her for 30 mins lawl

i don't mind the waiting part.. in fact its kinda fun to exchange funny smses here and there >___< cute =DD

upon her reaching.. woohoo nice t-shirt and short with her 14mm contact lens .. but make up isnt thick =D. nah.. doesnt matter.. look good with/without those =DDD

headed to mcdonald where we got ourselves lost while searching for mac before we manage to find it =___=. yep, she wanted to get the miniature but .. she dont want to get that collectible box cuz its freaking big and no use lawl. And its fking ripped off @ $8 buck. but end up buying it cuz its mac scam method to lure u into buying all the 8 food miniature..
haha.. gotta thanks that kind auntie who gave both of us two mcflurry for free =DD arigatou ne~

next stop : starbuck
this is where we decide to eat our mcflurry and play with those miniature lawl!!. I swear that the collectible box is freaking big.. i think can put in one NEW YORK NEW YORK burger lol.
yea.. eatting mcflurry in starbuck is awesome .. yeah together with the drink i order..
seriously.. i didnt went to starbuck much .. and got some problem order this special drink of her

whats was that call.. hmm ..
double skimmed (skinny?) vanilla latte.. wtf?
the waiteress was like ermm double what? double what?
u know skimmed vanilla latte alr got 2 shot of expresso .. and u want DOUBLE again?! 4 shot?
seriously.. i got no freaking idea of what the fk is that .. juz order it with my card and tada!!! a big cup of latte!!

GG noobs =___=

so basically .. i was drinking that .. while eating mcflurry while talking cock.. lawl
here come the oral practise which we spend 2 hours on deciding what to talk about.
its end up as she deciding that i'll be a singer who plan to be a idol .. and her as some overseas student who juz came back to singapore. Apparently.. she made my character like some crap when my parents kick me out cuz of that unpractical dream of becoming idol .. while my brother supported me by buying me a MIC.. HELLA MIC!!! WOOHOOO.. whats else is greater than a mic .. lawl

all the worse thing abt my character .. for example no $$ to go overseas and no parents support .. had become the best thing for her character where she won some lucky draw and want to bring me to new york for participating in american idol..

twisted story .. where we both got some roflmao laughters here and there.. seriously.. its so AMUSINGwwww

the rest of the time was spend.. rotting down there.. opening up with the miniature and choosing which hole is for which miniature.. lawl kinda fun haha.. yep chatting and stuffs.. good to hear that she is going to enjoy tml abt her shopping trip and her holiday within her fyp .. ^__^V

if only things can stay like that .. and of course.. good moments are SHORT.. and i got thrown with a "gotta go flag".. yep she leaving .. and im like .. hmm this isnt what i expect.. no choice .. what can i do?

hmm .. reached the interchange and trying to send her off like a gentleman .. but then she insist me to go to mrt cuz its faster there.. of course i insisted back.. then she went .. if u dont take mrt .. im will be pissed horrr!!! D:

with that.. and her assurance.. we headed a different path.. with me going to the mrt station.. right at the moment of the entrance of the gate.. im thinking..
"HEY HEY HEY KAH BENG... WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING..? U SHOULDNT BE FKING TAPPING YR CARD.... GO BACK NOW!!!"
another part of me ..; whcih is like a fking chicken when "AYIA.. THE BUS WENT OFF LIAO..DONT NEED TO BE THAT DESPO..."

with that.. i tapped in and stoned inside..
"ermmm.. wtf? why did i tapped in..?"
"its isn't too late to go out now and went back after her.."
yet .. another chicken me keep reluctantly .. went to the platform and took a train back..

before i board the train.. i sms her that i regretted not sending her back.. (cuz realli.. that time , my brain got fried or something.. ahh FUCK THIS)
and i got the reply of her .."dont need to regret lah!! i'll be irritated if u send me back everytime.."

ermm...? seriously.. i dunno what to reply after that .. till now =____= left unanswered..
with that.. i headed to sp .. where i use their toliet as my stomach pure cao seng away with all the mixture i had today lawl...

yeap.. that kinda concluded everything.. kinda feel like some fking loser when im went back home... whats could have been different if i took a different approach? follow my heart?
maybe she gotta be pissed.. but its better than me feeling fked up and regretting now T^T
hais.. anyway this is something i had chosen and regretted about it..

now to link back to a series of events since last year.. if anyone ask me whether did i regret sending her back or something.. when bus ride might like 1hr+ long and i reach home like 10+? .. the answer is no .. i dont regret.. in fact i like that ...

dunno why .. its been like 2 months aft her rejection .. yet i still clinging to that hope.. (baka na?).. i dunno what to say about it .. no doubt time with her realli makes me happy .. her randomness and her everything.. esp memories of japan... yep .. its some pure bias point of view ROFL..

whats i know is that .. i wouldnt blame anyone for these bad ends.. cuz this is clearly something which i follow my heart blindly.. haha .. laugh or whatsoever bah..

i dunno what is down the road for the next 2 years..ppl changes every day .. for better or worse.. thats apply to my dear friend weiren and arion.. who spending their time in army right now lawl..
as for me .. the next 2 year .. i shall be married to my waifu, SAR21 <3 <3.. and i shall love my botak hair and my magazines .. lawl.. as for her.. probably go for some art college in pursuing her interest on fashion design and arts.. or become some purikura shopowner as what she want ..rofl~

to sum it up ..
"Using a same method.. will always achieve the same result.."
how fking true.. yep for today.. i had made some bad flag and ended liek this.. yep totally regretted about it.. but thats for today..god knows what will be happening tomorrow or the next few months..
once bitten, twice shy .. trice dumb ..

here a trivia

種類：ワイン　
アルコール度数94％
容量：540ｍｌ
値段：6600円
【諸注意】飲み過ぎるとドMになります。

this is the description of her alcohol .. woah ..l love the precaution : Usage will result in become a M" .. this is too FKING fking fking fking TRUE..

=DDD

2011-01-24T23:56:00.004+08:00

Finally got some privacy to blog =DD

Anyway, these days, i had been putting my laptop away at my office, hence im not able to get online or access my computer for the past few days.. haha.
THe reason why i put my comp there is due to , i only got 3 hr to use my comp if i bring it here.. and im too freaking lazy to carry my lappy to work every single day .. its bloody 3-4 kg =___=

apart from that.. in contary to my previous post.. i actually went back to school to RESUBMIT my report.. after my head had finished correcting my report for me at 3 hr before the deadline... *clap*.. going back to school isn't bad afterall .. especially i had both my ice jelly and mango ice =DD

oh god.. these are realli lovely =D

Tomorrow.. i'll be taking my off day ...
yep .. finally a self-declare official leave during my internship ..

anyway going out with her tomorrow as she wanted to skip her school as well .. lol
probably studying jap oral and hanging around bah .. as usual.. >___<

for some reason, i dunno why am im panicking over on what i want to wear tml?
i even bought some clothes yesterday and thinking of how to match them ..
oh god .. is there something wrong with me?
cuz this nvr happened before when i juz grab whatever comfy t-shirt and jeans and head out lolx..

anyway .. hope tomorrow will be a good day =DDD >___<

report

2011-01-16T17:14:00.003+08:00

Congratulation kah beng!

You had finished writing your report!!
Yeah~ the main thing are up and left with some others adjustment such as modifying the appendix pages and cleaning up my writing...

98 pages of report .. (exclude Term of Reference) seems like a lot huh?
before i start to rejoice.. i saw my friend report of a 200 fucking pages.. 208 pages to be exact.. and words count pwn in everything..

my first reaction is ... WHAT THE FUCK ..
but after a look at it.. i knew that his report is very complete.. too complete to be true.. filled with diagrams and everything u learn from school .. i mean EVERYTHING of the OOAD module got written down..

woah~ i think that report could get AD for it.. but on the other look .. i think that person dont get it liao .. seriously wtf does school teach u how to copy and paste and to come out with shyt to bombard yr report.. ?

to start off, there isn't much was done.. yet able to write so much huh? .. its pure bombing only.. wanna know an example of bombing? .. its like writing your blog about every sec of your life and how u type this post out by pressing "a , d, c, s, ,f " on your keyboard =____=

too much unnecessary stuffs liao =__=..

(kicking the report far away from me)

ok .. back to my report.. hmm so i've finished it a week earlier.. so bascially im free right now and waiting for my internship to end (even though i dont wan to T^T) and waiting for graduation (^_^)V

meanwhile.. im searching for something to fill up my life.. any suggestions?

2011-01-16T11:47:00.001+08:00

OH LAWL

NPC?

2011-01-14T23:18:00.002+08:00

its been 2 weeks since new year =DD

nothing much had changed.. except i had almost finish my report writing. In fact im already left with the arrangement of the format and everything else is written =D. A total of 98 pages and 20+k words .. yep its one of the largest document i ever wrote.

with my internship slightly slacking.. i am still pondering what should i do between the period of Feb to the time when i enrol into NS.. seriously.. i had no idea yet..
i fking hate it when my parents keep telling me to continue working and working and working till NS. Yeah fk that!

Earlier on was discussing on some topic with my parents with my 3 brothers and his gf. Yep , the topic was about whether we should change our lifestyle and mindset. Especially when everyone is pissed off with the conservative mindset of my parents which prevents us from moving ahead.

Yeah.. cannot go overseas.. cannot have control over bank .. cannot do this and that.. its suck seriously.. and what suck more is their defence of stating .. we are TOO YOUNG.. fking too young ? TOO YOUNG ? FUCK YOU! wait until we are 30 years old or what?

sorry.. this post wasn't supposed to be a ranting one.. what im raging over the same fucking issues ever since i start working in NTUC.. the same FKING ISSUES!!!! FFKFKKFKF

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okay.. lets move on..

meanwhile.. the my 3D dating sim doesnt seems to be moving on too well.. machiam like some staled battle where there is not much progress.. its still the same =____=

lemme phrase it this way .. the target is a NPC character who will be always there and the action i could execute a limited and the result are the same.. =___=

yeah .. at least .. this is a better metaphors than pcc rofl..

bah .. its kinda late liao .. and after pausing for so much .. i lose the motivation to continue .. good bye~

bye ni~

Matured?

2011-01-09T00:34:00.002+08:00

Recently, i went back to school for my japanese class right after my attachment.

Well.. it been 1 month ever since i went to poly.. and i was wondering whether is there any big changes happening to the school.

While on my way from the bus stop to the classroom, i realized that one of the building had being completed and there's tons more students loitering around the school.

Perhaps i have stay in my internship for too long that i realized that those poly students were really childish. Yeah.. really childish and bunch of attention seekers. =____=

All the way from their dressing in tank-top , short, mini skirt.. and their behaviors like how they loved mingling around and chat like nobody business.. i found it kinda like secondary school students.

Oh god..why would i think that way?

More recently.. i really being in contact with those OL and my seniors.. who graduated 1-3 years ago.. and they are nothing like those poly students.. yeah more matured and stuff.. maybe after NS and stuffs.. ppl changed huh?

anyway conversation with them earlier was about university life and ns and driving and how they cope wif their works and their dreams hahah.. kinda interesting though =DD

well well.. i dunno what had caused me to think like that.. but im sure internship had pretty much made me see the reality and i prefer to see realistic stuffs bah..
currently.. what i wan is to graduate and leave poly before moving on for my ns and further studies.. =D

2011-01-06T01:01:00.001+08:00

missing you~

Why Intelligent People Fail

2011-01-02T23:05:00.000+08:00

1. Lack of motivation. A talent is irrelevant if a person is not motivated to use it. Motivation may be external (for example, social approval) or internal (satisfaction from a job well-done, for instance). External sources tend to be transient, while internal sources tend to produce more consistent performance.

2. Lack of impulse control. Habitual impulsiveness gets in the way of optimal performance. Some people do not bring their full intellectual resources to bear on a problem but go with the first solution that pops into their heads.

3. Lack of perserverance and perseveration. Some people give up too easily, while others are unable to stop even when the quest will clearly be fruitless.

4. Using the wrong abilities. People may not be using the right abilities for the tasks in which they are engaged.

5. Inability to translate thought into action. Some people seem buried in thought. They have good ideas but rarely seem able to do anything about them.

6. Lack of product orientation. Some people seem more concerned about the process than the result of activity.

7. Inability to complete tasks. For some people nothing ever draws to a close. Perhaps it’s fear of what they would do next or fear of becoming hopelessly enmeshed in detail.

8. Failure to initiate. Still others are unwilling or unable to initiate a project. It may be indecision or fear of commitment.

9. Fear of failure. People may not reach peak performance because they avoid the really important challenges in life.

10. Procrastination. Some people are unable to act without pressure. They may also look for little things to do in order to put off the big ones.

11. Misattribution of blame. Some people always blame themselves for even the slightest mishap. Some always blame others.

12. Excessive self-pity. Some people spend more time feeling sorry for themselves than expending the effort necessary to overcome the problem.

13. Excessive dependency. Some people expect others to do for them what they ought to be doing themselves.

14. Wallowing in personal difficulties. Some people let their personal difficulties interfere grossly with their work. During the course of life, one can expect some real joys and some real sorrows. Maintaining a proper perspective is often difficult.

15. Distractibility and lack of concentration. Even some very intelligent people have very short attention spans.

16. Spreading oneself too think or too thick. Undertaking too many activities may result in none being completed on time. Undertaking too few can also result in missed opportunities and reduced levels of accomplishment.

17. Inability to delay gratification. Some people reward themselves and are rewarded by others for finishing small tasks, while avoiding bigger tasks that would earn them larger rewards.

18. Inability to see the forest for the trees. Some people become obsessed with details and are either unwilling or unable to see or deal with the larger picture in the projects they undertake.

19. Lack of balance between critical, analytical thinking and creative, synthetic thinking. It is important for people to learn what kind of thinking is expected of them in each situation.

20. Too little or too much self-confidence. Lack of self-confidence can gnaw away at a person’s ability to get things done and become a self-fulfilling prophecy. Conversely, individuals with too much self-confidence may not know when to admit they are wrong or in need of self-improvement.

ィンクル☆くるせいだーす GoGo！ STARLIT BRAVE!!

2010-12-31T21:52:00.001+08:00

Was searching for some mainstream song call GO!GO! Special Medori till i ponder onto something FAMILIAR!!!

It's none other than the PSP game of Twinkle Crusader LOL!!!

ィンクル☆くるせいだーす GoGo！ STARLIT BRAVE!!

Notice the character on the right lawl... seems familiar?

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here a closer look..

HUHUHUH~~!!!!

When i firast ponder upon the homepage and watch the trailer.. then taiga pop out .. then im like WTF!?

As i continued to watch.. i saw beating angel dokoro-chan followed with Shana, Rin and others characters from other games.

I was wondering.. how the heck are they going to combine all these guest character into the main game? Hmm interesting, as i read on i realized that these guest characters will be in the story, challenging you to some fight >____<
Dying under her sword doesnt seems to be bad >___<
After playing Twinkle Crusader, i fell in love with the battle system. It's kinda balanced as having 1000000HP doesn't save you from a 9000HP boss.. as the moment he spam his skills onto you.. then u ggnoob liao .. can eat the dust liao ..

same apply when you have 2k HP fighting with some 30K HP boss, not to fret as lolotte will heal you back to some gay HP in no time.. however the kick of the system is u can only choose 1. To heal or to attack. Attacking will crippled the enemies, so u can attack him more and heal again... but if u miss.. u = gg

If u heal .. and the enemies spam .. u = gg .. yeah it depend on YOUR LUCK!!

After playing the PC twinkle crusader .. i'll definetly be trying the PSP verison.. after they add in some special characters =DDDDDDD

Hohohoho...
for those who are not interested in the game for some reason.. here is the Opening of the game..

Enjoy!

the truth of me..

2010-12-28T22:38:00.003+08:00

After the christmas post.. i realized that i wasn't even like these holidays. I feel it's plain dumb and boring. What's Christmas night with a girl or something? I think it's bullshyt as said by yb. Yeah reality =/= animes and games.

Anyway, recently, i have been doing extremely well for my Internship and the scary things is i really love my time working in UOB. A place where i can do my things, use my skills and knowledge for the benefits of everyone, including me for my reports and Internship.

After going through these 2 months or 3 months or Internship. I gotta admit that i have pretty much changed. When i try to deny that i didn't changed, but things and action that i've done, had tells otherwise. One thing that i gotta confess is that, i begins to LOVE MONEY more and more. I think money is the most powerful thing on Earth ever. yb is right about it..

During works, breaks, lunch and the way back home, i keep thinking of money. Thinking about how much money would make my life much more easier and happier. It might be true that $$ cant buy happiness.. but prove it to me in the first place.. if u dont like $$ then gimme thanks.. i will be happily accept it.

I've been asked a couple of time by the mom of the girls i like, they always ask me about my course i studied and what intern im taking. I always reply them back honest , Information Technology. And they will gimme that "ohhhhhh okay.." face.

I kinda tired of these reaction, and i swear that things will be 1000000x much better if i said "Business" or "Accountancy" so FUCK OFF WITH THAT _|_

Oh god, what have turned me to become like this.. but too bad this is something which i desired deep inside my soul.

Actually here are couples of things which $$ will made my life happier!

With $$, i'll be in JAPAN RIGHT NOW
with $$, i'll be getting my PIANO which i've waited for fking long and didnt come _|_
with $$, i'll be probably learning full speed in my jap in some school
with $$, i'll be probably learning how to drive especially when there is no car for me to drive in the first place
With $$, i'll be looking better in many aspect
with $$, i'll be exposed into many areas ..
With $$, i'll be waking up nicely in the morning with couple of nice decorations and atmosphere
With $$, i'll be donating them to charity and helps others.. to keep my karma down lawl..
with $$, i'll be getting my own electronic device and will not need to BEG my brother to lend me.

That's what $$ can do to me.
What of course, $$ can't buy everything..

Next.. lemme talk about my Internship, i have put in more than 100% into my internship and everyday 9pm to 6.30pm. I think it's very short and fast.. to be precise.. 3 months HAD say BYEBYE to me.. yeah i'm earning my salary.. its 800 bucks though .. but heck .. its money anyway.

Seems like having such routine are pretty healthy, making me sleep and wake up early. And forcing me to have my meals on TIME.. haha. Indeed i have spend most of my time working, but then its keep me updated and be someone useful and contribute back to society.

But more importantly, was the factors that i buried myself under work is due to her? Trying to escape from reality? I dunno, but i really think that the case.

No doubt, i couldn't put her down yet.. not yet. But i'm not moving onward either.. this period of time is like stagnant water. Same applied to my memories of her, stagnant only at the happiest time with her, yet completely filtered away the another half of the time when it's a GGNOOB case.

Till now, i still stalk her sometime. Going to see her facebook and twitter and they always end up with "FYP IS KILLING ME~!! T___T" or how much her life got screwed up.
It's tortuous for me to read it everytime =____= , so much that i really want to stop what i am doing , and ask her to stop whatever fking thing she is doing.. and drag her out to play crazily for a day.

Oh god, what have gotta into me?
any cure?
i doubt so .. =_______=

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

2010-12-27T23:27:00.003+08:00

Once again~ Merry christmas everyone!!

Yet another snowless, rainy christmas haha.. doesn't it make u excited?

I still remember 2 years ago, or 3 years ago, when my christmas is always spent in NTUC with the NTUC gangs. I guess that will be my best christmas ever haha.

As of now, my christmas is spent in my house, having fun and playing online games with my brothers... yeah having 3 brothers for gaming isn't bad after all. all the screaming and blaming across the house =____=

This year, i received a christmas card from li rong unexpectingly.. it's is of good taste, as expected from girl. Also the handwriting abit imba leh.. machiam like computer printed one.. superb neat and nice~ haha. BUT HOW SHE GOT MY ADDRESS IN THE FIRST PLACE?!?!

Also, i have sent out couples of christmas card to my friends who i will be inviting them for my wedding.. (if i EVEN had it). For those who didn't received it , don't be sad.. cuz i try to contact you for your address but you are not available .. so yeah~

The whole christmas eve was about me working till 3pm and went back home and watch hayate till the christmas.. and i managed to finish the whole Hayate no Gotoku Season 2 =DDDD. I guess i will be doing a review of it later on.. if i got the time >____<

The day after christmas, went to friend house to help him in his coding.. yeah not bad.. after months without touching Game Programming, i managed to get back all my coding skills heheh =DDD

As for now, attachments seems to be okay .. and i've finished 2 of my reports liao.. hehehe slacking days ahead =DD

このアニメはこんな面白わけがない！

2010-12-20T21:20:00.003+08:00

TSUNDERE IS EXTREMELY EFFECTIVE!

For years, i have know that this finishing move is deadly.. yet i keep dying to it >____<

Gotta admit my heart went stop when the mouse dropped, clicking the Option. That second.. is PPPPPPPEEERFECT!!!!!

Fuck yeah!

smile =DD

2010-12-17T21:03:00.002+08:00

I realized that this couples of day, i've been smiling a lots.. alots.. i think something wrong with me liao =DDD

the couples of weeks are really enjoyable..especially my attachment where all my laziness popping out, causing me to write scripts for automation which made my jobs much easier lolx.

Well, my job today was to update the matrix table in the excel, but laziness got over me.. so where i seeked help from my colleague to help me with some SQL scripting. Yeah, don't underestimate SQL, i basically wrote down a script to generate one whole EXCEL spreadsheet with his help. Yeah, spent couple of hours thinking on how the heck can SQL command generate one EXCEL spreadsheet.. but yeah i manage to do it =DDD

Actually, i wouldn't even think of that., till i accidentally forget to save my hundreds of test records which took me few hours.

"SCREW THAT.. IMMA CREATE ONE SCRIPT TO GENERATE ALLLLLLLL THE TEST RECORDS" With hours spent designing it, instead of recording down test result manually.. But the outcome was, my hours of testing can be easily done in 12sec =DD

Ytd i went back to tiong bahru , had a movie with my friend over there.. "Hello stranger.." it's one epic MOVIE~!! damn random and funny thai show.. never fail to amuse me.. yeah its can turn out to be some romantic chessy yet with damn emo part and horror and funny stuff =____=. I don't want to spoil you guys.. but DO WATCH =DDDD

It's 17th dec right now.. and 7 more days to CHRISTMAS~!!
oh well.. nth fun about christmas anyway ..~

updates~

2010-12-13T23:54:00.002+08:00

Swee attachment stuffs have been completed mostly.. well although its a side project but i still do my best for it and it's done by now (except some fine tuning here and there..)

After all , the programs will be used by myself anyway .. so just a tweak here and there will is going to make my life easier while doing checking. Of course, for others whose doing SIT , UAT testing as well .. haha Apart from that, im sure that i got tons to write for my reports liao. hehehe

apart from the usual slacking in the job.. i realized that a day passes realli fast... like 3x 2hr songs from nico and that's it time to go home hah.. Thanks yongbin for those songs, realli good =DD but i wonder how come got so many Kotoko's one =___=

i'm left with exactly 8 weeks more before i finished my intern. 8 Weeks will be very very fast haha.. but will anything be changed? sian army is always sian T^T

before that.. i think i realli hope to finish some of the piano piece by TENMON bah.. and others anime one.. currently.. im 25% into my current piece. It's really beautiful that my mom suddenly went "Woah.. how come suddenly the piece sooo much FEEL one.." lawl >___< with all these rush, my life is back to anime, games and wonderful ANISON!!! haha nothing had changed right? but nonetheless, she is still on my mind every moment >___< *gulp*

Keyboard =DD

2010-12-11T21:52:00.003+08:00

After spending my whole day outside helping my dad..

i realized that yeah .. its important to score flag on family as well =DDD
at least it will make me less guility especially on how little quality time i spent with them...

i see them everyday .. YES
i talk to them everyday YES
quality chat.. NO
yep.. working hard on that area.. especially now i semi had no flag route to go for .. lawl

not bad.. spending the whole day helping my dad on his work.. going around people house.. and observe their daughters.. i mean helping them fixed their electrical appliances and listen here n that.. yeah .. they have a wonderful family.. lawl (Y)

apart from that.. went ard the market ( aka my parent working place since 30 yrs ago ..) and see how things are going.. as usual always that lively heh.. as expected from my hometown .. hah
had a little chat with my mom friends and how she comment on me being filial to my mom by chatting with her everytime she saw me n my mom ..

well but the fact is that.. i didn't speak much >___<".. yeah so gotta work harder in this area.. and not like they can live for another 40 years lawl .. OTL...

i reach back home at 8pm .. pondering about my possible flag today n how i missed such an important flag.. yeah.. fuck myself for that... ORZ

arghh .. i wonder what is this feeling of missing her and checking my phone oftenly .. hoping to see someone sms me.. okay lah hoping to see HER sms me.. In additional , everytime i heard a vibration, i thought its my phone.. and i hurry up and go and check >__<. Oh god, save me pl0x ..

last night was chatting with those broken-hearts lawl .. bunch of people who got tormented by girls and yep we chat and share stuffs.. hmm .. i got this from someone

"hope is like a candle
while without hope, you are in pure darkness, empty and cold, seeking for light..
but if you hold on to that tiny hope, it's like a fickling candle that spark up light once in a while, and left burning wax mark on your holding hand"

nice one.. but right now ... its like im been walking in this darkness since the beginning.. and i picked up the candle along the way ... but now is whether do i bear to drop this candle and face the darkness once again?

i have think through quite alot.. the possible outcomes and those impossible ones.. either way .. i only have one loser goal .. "to make her happy.."

saying that, make me seems like some fking teddy bear and a sore loser.. arghh fk that.. _|_

Anyway.. back to the topic of today ...
hmm its been 1 month+ since i finished Tears to Tiara and i haven't been playing anything new since then.. jus repeating those old pieces over and over again .. yet didn't improved at all .. lawl.

So with that, i decided to learn a new piece, One more time one more chance - Byousoku 5 cm.
Yeah, its a heavenly piece by TENMON and one of my favorite piece right now heheh ..

THe album, Promise by TENMON and Shinkai are realli GOD-LY.. my ears just died of happiness wahahaha...

anyway, the reason why i choose this song is becuz of TENMON , the movie byousoku which touched my heart and make me feel like the main character when rot away his adult life into programmings rofl.. However unlike the main char , there no ousanajimi or girls while im young back then rofl... YEAH .. thats the reasons .. =____=

To tell you frankly ... i'm 9000% in mood for this piece, screwed the fact that this piece is 5 MINUTES .. =___= however.. i'll do my best.. =DD

P/S : since there is no one much left reading my blog.. i think its better for me to explode here than explode elsewhere ( i have nowhere to explode this onto..)

FK, im missing her lah!! SHYT!!!!
FK TEDDY BEAR TOO =DDD
FK BRO SIS relationship .. btw i don't mind INCEST =DDDD
FK me for getting into all these.. T___________________T

2010-12-10T23:09:00.001+08:00

i confess.. she reject me
she still treat me good good
and is it .. i take her for granted?
as in .. its like.. i know thats there's not much ending for us
except as friends
and its very good that she still be close to me
so .. after all those
am i wrong to keep clinging to the tiny microscopic of hope?

ADVICE THX,
No regards
Kah Beng ):

O__________________o

2010-12-10T00:12:00.001+08:00

Pure win~!

My mind just got fried =w=

彼女はエイスです

2010-12-07T21:28:00.002+08:00

www...

Finally, got some time to blog awhile.

Continued from where i left off yesterday.

The osaka intern are returning back to Osaka T____T
2 weeks for them to take care of us back in osaka, and yet we only took care of them for 3 days over 2 weeks ... ORZ

I'm sure they really enjoyed themselve, can see them so happy and yesh, introducing them Singapore food and the bloody freaking hot n sudden weather which made them @____@.
2 weeks are really fun for us to, from fetching them from airport, to listening to their presentation and their lesson .. and all the way to the farewell back in the exact same airport and terminal when i went japan.

That moment, how i wish i could hide inside their luggage and went together =DDD
I wonder how's hime-sama doing right now.. lawl she actually Kumiko-hime, the one who assigned to me back then. She realli looks like some federal princess who wore yukata with that umbrella.. lolwwwww

As for N4, im sure i'll be passing unless i got 0 for my paper 1 haha. God knows if i realli get zero for it, since from question 20 onwards.. i pure dunno what it mean lol..

As for my attachment, things are getting better and slacker especially when you don't do anything much and stare at computer to understand the procedures and workflows. Seems like it's good not to do anything sometimes haha.

For those who bother to read this blog, apparently.. i fell sick after staying up till so late at night due to studying. Monday was kinda =____= especially when i came back home like 12am on Sunday, and went to work the other day. Office pure cold that i keep drinking icy coke.. apparently it's worked .. =DD

FOr today, i thought i'll be dying.. but im wrong.. was like SUPER HEALTHY since the moment i woke up. As if i slept like 32382993 hours and my body pure cool one. Happy happy and happy and went to office with a happy mood and come back also happy. And then even went jogging just now, breaking my own records.. 13mins for 3km++.. Then go exercise here and there and never feel tired..

マサカこれは恋の力ｗｗ？　(ﾉ´∀｀*)

Right now going to do my japanese homework.. like finally?
before my jap teacher decide to chase after me lol ..

EXAM, AIRPORT , FLAG

2010-12-06T20:47:00.002+08:00

The most hard-working period of me studying is actually for my JLPT N4 preparation.
4 months of studying.. (on and off..)
2 weeks of hardcoring..
2 weeks of training in Japan..
4 months of worrying here and there, thinking might failed or what..

Yet.. the paper come out is like potato.. (hokkien)
Over-studied lawl, except the fact that vocab still pwning me =DD

After today, it made me think back of what i planned several months ago.
Still remember 4 months ago, dragging her to Bugis to sign up for N4, even though she want take N5. But N5 are for n**** lawl..

Back to the September whereby im going to japan and we didn't touch it at all..
after coming back from japan.. everyone is busy and didn't touch japanese too =D

OTL.. nonetheless with or without her studying.. i'll be studying at full speed heh..
The final lap .. and i already suspecting her and everyone else to ggnoob, but it turned out that it wasn't the case rofl..

Cuz the test is realli easy lawl~!!
（ｓｈｙｔ i continue writing it later ...) TOMORROW!!

Assassin Creed

2010-12-02T22:58:00.002+08:00

"What kills the world isn't wars or human, but the sun, cuz it's baking us every seconds.."
- Desmond (aka Altair aka Ezio aka the Prophet)

YOS GUYS!

I've just finished assassin creed 2 earlier. Seriously it's a GREAT GAME! 10/10

God knows how long since i ever play a "recent-awesome graphic-3rd person" game.
Surprisingly, i have not suffered from motion sickness like i used to =___=.

Lemme start off with Assassin Creed 1 first =DD

You are Desmond! Someone who got locked up by some scientist who claimed to help you retrieve something from your ancestor's memories through you. I love this concept whereby it claims that human actually contains memories of all your ancestors down inside your DNA, just like how your DNA passed down.

As well as how animals actually be able to mirgate through different lands during winters or how turtle heads toward the sea when they hatched . Interesting isn't it?

A machine call animus help you to put you into sleep and you went to the memories of your ah gong, Altair back in 1000s in Jerusalem, Middle East where Jesus once lived. You started off as assassin, trained by the head of your town. You never questioned him and always did what he said, killing off those villain. The villains consist of the TEMPLAR who are mostly Left-Wing (attacks and advances, warmongers). You killed many of their kinds, like how they killed yours too.

After years of killing, you realized something... you wonder..

Why people went bad and harm each other?
What are they trying to achieves?
What do they do that?

With that in mind, you still went to kill off all the villain and retrieve this mind-controlling ball. But after all those assassination which took me 2 days to clear the game. This question was slapped right onto my face. "Will the world be better when all the bad people gone?

Assassin Creed 1 was kinda all about BROTHERHOOD!!! YEAH! shyt it's touching to some extend even though it shouldn't be T^T..

Let's move onto Assassin Creed 2 =DDD

You come back as DESMOND once again.. this time isn't it fun that in 2010, the TEMPLAR FROM 1200s STILL EXIST? and trying to DOMINATE THE WORLD? Yeah, love that part when they who trying to retrieve your ancestors memories are your enemies since a THOUSAND years ago!

This time, it's a few centuries after your great great ah gong , Altair pass away. You are playing as his descendant. The game started off with you as a baby trying to kick your legs and soon after that, your brothers and father got hanged RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU while you trying to save them!

Been betrayed by your most trusted friends of your father, you raged and promised to revenge for them while you seeking refuge under your uncle, Mario.

Soon, you seek revenge like what you always did. Killing and killings and this time with the help of Leonardo da Vinci who make awesome weapons and flying machine for you? kawoii desu ne~
More and more thing have been revealed that the Tamplars are actually seeking for the artifacts of the Eden.

You managed to retrieve them and went to the holyland to seek for the answer where your ancestors are trying to find for YEARS~. However the truth is so shocking that i suggest you to play to find out =DD

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Graphics : 10/10

The modelling is imba, the modeler might have way too much time on their hand =___=. Just look at the buildings..

What you see here are the actual gameplay. It like playing a cinematics game showing yourself.
Indeed a masterpiece combine of graphics and game mechanics. The armors and weapons are very cool looking yet preserving its antique looks. The enviroments effect are very nicely made as well.. water reflection , flames, smoke, shadows (Y)AWESOME

Sound : 8/10
Till now, i love the SFX of the hidden blade killing. The sudden outburst of metal striking against each other during a perfect silent moment. BGM are lovely as well, suit the background of the game. Guitars , violins. Great job =DDD

Game Mechanic : 10/10
I love how realistic this game is, the physics are kinda perfect especially the part when you knock onto someone and how you fell from the roof and collapsed down into the floor like a noob. And how you manage to navigate and leap your way around. Very realistic indeed!

Weapons, till now i havent figure out how the heck you did a perfect counter-attack =___= My chance is like 40% of achieving that haha..

This game is LOADED with weapons, GUN , smoke grenades , sword , dagger, throwing knives and how the GARRRRR, your fist =D, all of them got their own advantages but i just stick with the hidden blade throughout the whole Assassin Creed 1.

Transport.. hmm you got HORSE! Carriage, swimming.. flying machine? and boat? Seriously.. they got too much time on their hand to make all these. The thing is that, all these transport have a very good physic. your boat dont row just because you press W. you need to row it and change direction and you need TIMING!!!

Flying machine is awesome as i keep crashing into the building during the first test run. AND LEONARDO DA VINCI still say WOAH GOOD JOB!!! (thanks ah..)

AI : 9/10

Imagine you knocked onto someone and they kpkb you till all the guard come and chase after you. The archers on the roof warn you and tell you to f off before they start attacking you. How the burger run away from you and how you use prostitute to lure the guards away and how you use mercenaries to assist you.

Actually i wanted to give the AI 10/10, but apparently, one of the mission when i need to escort some big shot, yet he stand there like dumb shyt =___=. Oh yeah i love how AI suicide after you did certain things to them.

Gameplay : 8 / 10
10/10 for dungeons

Firstly, this game deserved a 10/10, but i do note that repetitive gameplay spolit alot of things, people like me who don't have patience might really really really really hate the time challenge when i failed so badly that i skipped all that =___=. It's like telling your character to run 1237283293km in a minutes time. What worse is, it's compulsory for some mission. However, the good things is, after i failed so much and i finally managed to success and there is something inside me rejoicing =DD

Like i mention previously, this game have tons of things to play.
You can choose between, escort the VIP, assassination , time challenges , flag challenges, who the fastest to row the boat, who the fastest in horse hiding. Markmanship for the gun. Best climbers and tricky climbers. In Assassin Creed 2, there is even the Protect the horse carriage against soldiers and fires where you drive down the whole carriage across the bbbbuuuuurrrrning land. =___= Fun isn't it?

Next something which made me went totally WTF is the Dungeon in Assassin Creed 2.
Kudos for the crews. All the dungeons are differently modeled and it's really eye-opener for me to see all type of secret passage and nice marbles ceiling and crystal windows. Eye-candy

Eye candy isnt it?

Voicing : 10/10

"Do not do thing that compromised the BROTHERHOOD!" - kah beng =DD
Awesome realistic voice and everything ranging from prostitute to the one who you assassinate!

They all die realisticly with those screams and people running away. Oh yeah try to play the "JAPANESE VERISON" cuz apparently i saw Aya Hirano voicing during the Credit page. lolwwww

With that, i shall end my reviews =DD

Thanks pion pion for jioing me into this awesome game! =DD
never had i know that it's realli addictive >___<
spent a week worth of time completing them ever since Hari Raya.

Lastly, PLEASE DO PLAY! it's in my Grade A game liao heh

Friendship?

2010-12-01T00:39:00.002+08:00

A moment ago, i was watching the Mentoring Camp 2010 videos whose photo taken, compiled and made by me and myself and i and my shadow..

Nearly brought me to tear as i reminiscing over the past few months where i really planned such camp with friends and made the campers happy. No doubt, all these is impossible without a strong friends who you can leave to them to cover your back.

Today marks the first December of 2010. And couples of weeks or month since i actually meet up with my friends. Yeah poly friends.. somehow we are drifting and yet either side want to reel it back as a whole.

Today topic will be on Friendship.

Friendship is something which doesn't exist in my parents' dictionary especially when they told me the reality that they don't have friend at their age.

Friendship is a bond where people meet up together over a period of time, get together for an objective and leave.

There are also people who come close to you due to you're rich , famous, or you're good to something. Flock to you and advanced themselve under your wing.. and use you like a stepping stone. Isn't that how society works?

What's more if you still get back to your friend after a period of time.. are you both still as close?
I don't think so.. My mom told me that if you're married and you didn't see your wife for 1years or 2.. are you still as close? No .. i don't think so, relationship happened when there is comunication...

All seems to be true, earlier was haing a chat with one of my committee member and she asked me how am i recently.. and i told her stuffs about my recents and kinda shocked to her. But i'm wondering how long is she going to keep checking up with her friends? Haha..

I failed badly as a friend... totally lost contact with secondary , primary and poly friends..

Haha.. so late liao byebye~
and Happy new MONTH~!

Maji de kumo ni koisuru?

2010-11-28T10:27:00.002+08:00

What does this tell you?

For many girls.. will just went ewwww sweet~
For one particular regular visitor of my blog will probably went "GET THIS FUKING DISGUSTING THING AWAY..."

Either way.. that picture IS NOT something i feel right now (in love or whatever crap) crap yes!

Anyway.. Today topic will be on Teddy Bear.
Yeah.. something girl either like or hate.. (apparently someone did told me I GOT NO ROOM FOR PLUSHIES!!)

Many guys want to be teddy bear.. which is so well-loved by girls..
Boy : (pl0x hug me .. gimme love <3~)

However never did they know that, like teddy bear .. they are often dumped one side whenever the girl don't feel like hugging it or giving it love..

So which guy are happy when your girl just come to you for comfort whenever she is sad cuz she know you like her .. yet when she is okay.. fking dump you at one corner.. that's so like teddy bear =DD

Oh yeah.. i forget to say how many teddy bears did girl have? 4-5?

Actually, rx mention this theory to me last night at 2am? It's kinda true.. lawl..
So what i want to be?

A teddy bear which at least can get some of her love but get dumped away?
Or a cosmetic where she have to use it daily..?

But right now.. i wanna be a gradate lawl (get over and done with poly..)

2010-11-17T23:23:00.002+08:00

Recently.. many many many things happened and brrzz its cold right now hah..
this is what you can expect from sitting under the fan after coming out from bath..

Oh yeah!! recently.. i juz installed assassin creed and played it(actually it was 2 days ago .. ytd and today lawl)

IT's addictive especially you got chased by the enemies and you keep running and running and running and running =___=
then you hide somewhere and wait for everything to chill then you go out killing again =DDD

yeah this is the cycle of the game, yet the fun elements is still there =DD.

By the maker of Half-Life 2, and the scariest game on Earth, F.E.A.R. What can you expect?

Graphic is nice, and i love the physics and how they took notice of the smallest details such as how people come after you, the way they talk, the way they look at you and the way you run endlessly =DD

Something i like about this game is , I DONT GET MOTION SICKNESSwwwww

Hmm.. currently half way through the story mode and will be completing it by this weekend, then i play AC2 - brodarhood =D

To add on i've finished playing Tears to Tiara - Tears to Tiara, this piece which brings me back all the memories back then where i clocked dozens of hours playing it.

The first time i heard, i was like " I'M SO GONNA PLAY THIS ON PIANO!!!"
Then my bro agreed with me =D

Took me less than a month to complete learning it and this piece is rather easy but i modify quite a number of chords here and there and even came up with my own ending =___=

hmm .. everything i posted here like random sio -__-|||
cuz realli too much things to say yet lazy to blog heh

next.. hmm it's about 13 days ever since that incident..
and 12 days (and ongoing) of thinking whether did i made a right choice or a realli bad one >___<

okok.. not that i wanted to blog about this.. but if i don't i might just explode n die XD (not that my blog ever got people reading it =___=)

realli lah.. crap keep thinking about it here and there.. wonder why arghh..
nvm.. she did a good job already,by not making me wait by stating her really clear
but still.. why am i keep clinging on to the tiny thread of hope? (its not thread lah.. maybe some microscopic linkage)

the bad choice is abt .. how i feel that we suddenly drifted apart leh.. like she ignoring me >___<.. maybe i think too much bah hah (maybe it's realli is..lawlwwww)

i wrote alot actually.. but i all deleted them after thinking they shouldnt get posted haha...

all i wish now is just simply we returning back to normal (ahh not like she even bothered abt it lawl =D)

oh yeah something nice to quote from rx :

girl can reject or accept a boy..
but the boy can only love her more and more..

the fact is .. i realize i dont love her lawl.. i seriously like her only =___=..
(i nvr say i love anyone* before.. i only use like for the past 19 years of my life)
* Love is reserved for family members heh =DD

okay.. what's important now is for us to go back normal.. i mean ME going back to normal life.. and don't think too much ..
ahh.. another cup of anime pl0x?

OSAKA Presentation

2010-11-09T23:22:00.005+08:00

Okay!
Tomorrow is my presentation for Osaka Trip .. luckily it's in ENGIRSH!

Slide 1 :

Hi, everyone this is kah beng speaking~!!
look at this picture!! .. nice food and nice smiles right?
but this isn't the welcome party..
this is the photo taken right BEFORE the welcome party.
this is where WE HAD OUR FIRSTTT MEAL after landing JAPAN.
do it the japanese teens style.. conbini foods hah..
apparently.. they taste godly.. haha..

after we finished our lunch.. we didn't know that right outside that room ..
there are lots of ppl gathering in the other room outside ours..
guess what.. they're the host families ..
and then we were like "what we are feeling the same feeling before you all come into this room"
haha!!! ..

slide 2 : of course.. we went in and straight away stand in the middle with all of them watching us.. the centre of attracttion .. liek what we are doing right now..
next . we have the introduction by in charge who explains what exactly the host stay program is all about as well as thanking them for volunteer themselve for the programmes.

next.. we introduce ourself to everyone.. saying our hobby n how we feel when we came to japan.. so of course.. it's not easy.. kind of panick as we are using japanese to introduce ourselve to this much ppl ..

after the self-introduction .. we are been paired up to each of our host families.. of course, all of us are happy when we saw them. even though we just meet each other for the first time.. we are already chatting... while chatting .. we helped ourselves to the food which consist of japanese sweets , and drinks..

Slide 3 : Farewell party :

the farewell party is at the evening of the saturday .. after staying with the host families for 8 days.. this also means that we are hanging out together wif our host families for the last day T___T

at around 6.30pm .. we get back to the venue when we came first.. there is the registration counter where the student received their own name tags n of course.. everyone turn up =DD
as you can see this pic .. everyone alreayd got prepared.. and there is the reception desk .. where we received our own name tag....

this is the photos of the students and their host families.. taken after everyone had settled down.. you all can see.. there is so many ppl bidding farewell to us T___T

shortly after we all gathered.. the room darkened and there is a video show .. a video compiled of all the stupid things.. the funny things such as our odonri dance videos.. which luckily didnt get uploaded to youtube .. of course.. it's kinda make us sad.. 8 days.. so far passed liao T^T

after that .. its the climax .. where both the student n their families have been called forward..
and the student will be reading the love letter which they wrote in school .to their host families.. thanking them .. ermm.. of course .. its kinda touching and of course .. many cries.. lolx

the host families are not aware that we wrote the letter for them.. so many got caught surprised =DD .. the host families also tell us how they feel as well ..

after while.. our teachers over there present us the certificate.. however this isn't a normal certi.. cuz it did wrote what quality of yours.. which gave them a big impression.. eg certificate of entertainment .. certificate of adventous .. not only that.. we got another hand made board.. which contains lots of post it from everyone.. as well ..
lastly.. chishiho sensei end the ceremony by thanking everyone on behalf of ngee ann n we exchange gift with the teachers over there..

so it came to the end.. onto the actual farewell party.. picture tells more than words .. look at them .. i couldnt bear to say farewell >__<

2010-11-04T22:56:00.002+08:00

what happened nowaday... i wondered..
is god trying to play a trick on me?

yes im a fool right now..
at least i'm going to be immune to flu liao (:

ヨスガノソラ

2010-10-22T01:20:00.005+08:00

まずは、一回目のお辞儀ー。
次にお賽銭……いくらでも良いよ。

ま、こういう時のお約束で……五円だね。
硬貨を投げ入れると、賽銭箱から鳴る独特の音が辺りに響く。

そして、がらがらーっ。
年季の入った特有の古びた金属音がする。

そして、二回お辞儀……これがいわゆる二回するって、言われてるところかな。

深く、ゆっくりと社に向かって頭を下げる。

そして、ぱんぱんって二回手を鳴らして、お願い事でも、
何でもいいから神様に伝えるんだよっ。

わかった。言われた通り、僕は胸の辺りで二回、柏手を打つ。
これからの生活が、何事もなく過ごせていけますように……

そんでっ、もう一回ふかーく、お辞儀。
離れるとき、もう一回かるーくお辞儀して、バイバイって感じ。

Haha.. this is how you should actually do when you visit japanese shrine heh .. =DD

In Short :

亮兄ちゃんなんか、ぺこっ、ちゃりん、がらがら、ぱんぱん、むにゃむにゃ、ぺこっで、お終いだよ

Anyway.. within the already limited holiday.. i started playing Yosuga No Sora.. especially it was inside my computer all the while =___=. Definitely going to complete it especially the anime's artwork is sooo nice =D

Unlike the anime.. so far.. there is still no ecchi stuffs =___= probably the anime rushed too much and too much fan services lawl ..

After coming back from Japan.. kinda used to what they usually do thus able to expect the next action which might happened during the game. One thing for sure, i understand how their convenient store works haha..

Playing it untranslated but totally fine especially when i got renai translator beside me heh .. =D

1 Weeks after Osaka

2010-10-20T00:34:00.002+08:00

It's been 1 weeks since I came back from Osaka.

FUUUU~!! I still miss the time spend in Osaka..

I miss my host families!!!
my 7am waking up time,
the cold air in japan!!!,
the wonderful fresh food over there,
the 8.03am bus which filled with high school girls
everything~!!!

if i got a chance to go back.. i will go back hah.. probably this time make it 3 weeks. 3 Weeks of self-activities with friends will be fun of course =D

nonetheless.. im still having the post down-syndrome.. hah
stuff which i don't look forward..

thursday napfa .. which im going to fail lawl.. also .. the attachment's briefing which is probably going to waste my time..

next.. attachments.. yeah .. it reminds me that holidays are realli ending fast ..

thing to look forward.. Thursday~ cuz its my best friend's birthday bwahaha.. i dunno what might be happening to him recently.. but i wish him to cope over and get done with it.. hah saying might be easy .. but i really dunno how can i help .. =/ heh =D

saturday : night cycling.. what else =DD

Day 7

2010-10-07T23:06:00.002+08:00

Did pretty much thing in the morning.
As always, the breakfast is always alot.. hah you guys should know my appetite hah .. but then .. even i couldn't finish =___= but then i already my best liao.. lol

Today.. i went to school alone.. lawl and this time.. too early.. and then the bus is always punctual apart from yesterday =___= where i waited like siao.. 1hr for 1 bus?

During class.. learn those verb and adjective so that we can use them during our activities.. i kinda like the part where we were asked to choose 2 club and state why.. which everyone thought that we are going for 2 clubs only. Lawl at those who were pissed.. cuz later on sensei tell us that that is only for example. Thus in the end.. we went for all 4 clubs..

After that.. first club is AKIDO!!! shiok lah~!! i love how my hand hurts =___= abit pain .. but shiok lawl im a M i guess.... everyone there like pro only.. slam ppl like nothing and the girls also strong.. the one whom i sparr against.. like wtf.. grab my hand and control it..im like owww owww oww~ kanna pwnt badly.. anyway at the end.. i learn how to grab ppl hand and make them pain lawl

music club.. OMG I LOVE IT~!! played "GUZHEN" and the style of playing is exactly what i play for my piano lol .. the numbering system ... abit hard though . .. but i can play some simple one EXCEPT those PRO PRO one. orz~

cha-do.. omg diffcult club sia.. how do you learn something when it is rare? the japanese ppl are really really polite lah.. too much manner i guess.. but then its GOODD!!! i asked a question.. "Tea cermony iss not complusory this so little actually know about that.. jyaa how do you think of the future of japanese tea ceremony ..? kinda worried =___=

next .. archery .. look easy but its hard?!?! there is no place to place your arrows at all.. zZzz rofl the time i play.. i kanna "duaaaa tio" my poor arm ;___;

after that went home and go out to eat dinner..
2 chiobu sio(risa n another one, both osaka university)~ .. not bad not bad (ps now very sleepy liao~ 12.30am )
the people there really good.. shopkeeper pouring tea for her employee.. and asking them to stop for drink.. unlike singapore where they expect you to work n die.. =____=

kk im done i guess~ oh yeah there is a piano inside the fam rest =DDD

Osaka Day #3

2010-10-04T22:59:00.003+08:00

Yet again, i just feel like sleeping more and more.. hah weather is just so perfect!

Breakfats is always so awesome!! Strawberry jam in Japan = whole strawberry inside the jam.. epicly nice omg~!! Put on the bread got those "splat splat" sound. Tried it and it's lovely >___<

After all these, i tried Onigiri .. omg its like eating one whole bowl of rice, concentrated on one lump. Pure full liao ~__~

After that, went to take a bus. Lucky the bus stop is near(beside some primary school somemore.. tons of primary school kids n quite lively =DD) Over there, waited for teacher n board the bus.

First time boarding the bus, and the system is very different from singapore. First you take the ticket.. then you sit inside and wait until u reach your stop. After that, you insert the ticket, then pay your fare. Haha, on the way, meet up with Shin and go there together.

First lesson was kinda short, played ice-breaker n the japanese students are lovely hah.. and funny~!! Zen's singing is eepic .. and I WILL BLOG ABOUT IT!!! fuuuu.. the image stuck in my brain

after that.. wear yukata and its super fun and wear up as samurai .. bwahah .. using umbrella as sword..

after that .. play some game and bean picking is super super hard =___=
after that.. took bus back alone..

Osaka Day #2

2010-10-04T00:11:00.003+08:00

After sleeping so late at night yesterday, i woke up kinda late.
The first thing i saw was "OMFG!! WHY SO BRIGHT!?!? What time liao?"
Literally, i just jumped out of my bed, but i checked only 7.30am, i only sleep for 6 hours.
But i swear this 6 hours is fking long sio~

After waking up, only to see that breakfast is been prepared and then almost everyone except me are already awake. Haha, im still not used to daytime in Japan. (STILL NOT!!)
Breakfast is awesome!

All i can say that Hideto-san is SUGOII PAPA DESU!
He cooks, he drive, he jokes.. really funny person.
I like how he give random nickname to his wife, Penguin .. rofl and his son, kankoki. Rebellious son.. rofl
Back to the point, breakfats is really awesome.. egg bread, kiwi , milk coffee.. nom nom nom~!!

After that, went alone with kohei-kun to the train station. The way there is nice, got tons of things to see. omg autumn red red leave sio~!! singapore DO NOT HAVE!! .. there got perismon tree also.. >___<

I swear that the train ticket is expensive though.. but then you are able to eat, sleep , drink except smoking in train. The station remind me of School Days though haha..
(transfering then) Alighting at Umeda.
Underground shopping centre, the first thign i saw was kinokuniya!!

First thing to do : find hanbun no tsuki ga noboro sora!! hah but i cant find though.. but can find tons of anime books and novels.. well well .. next time then find =D
After that went to yodobashi kamera , its look like sim lim , except without scammer hah.. went to the handphone section and i wan go WTFXOMGXBBQ .. damn chio phone but cannot buy.. haizz

then .. the TV there is awesome sio~ as except from japan.. hmm i also saw cleaning robot and many many other thing heh ..
all very nice~!!
the 6th last level is piano shop .. arghh made my hand damn itchy .. so itchy that i play for kohei-kun haha.. not bad not bad.. iro iro mono ga arun keredo .. demo kane ga nai T^T ..

omfg why my hand automatically type japanese? =___= die liao ..
back to english ..

last level is PSP game .. bwahaha got galge and tons of games.. and walk-through guide. i think all these might bored the girls liao .. firstly its IT stuffs and its game hah ..but realli nice to see all the tales series and all those anime goods lawl..

gacha gacha alot sio~ .. machiam like maze nia.. then i go gacha one bakemonogatari.. and first attempt tio NADEKO~!!! WOOHOOO~ .. but shinobu is the best looking one.. nvm nvm~

oh yeah.. i tried mcpork too .. veyr very very very nice.. its epic.. the sauce is nom nom nom~!!

after that went to Nanba to meet his friend.. yuuko and daisuke.. daisuke seems like some epic name .. bwahaha yep it was and yuuko is quite a nice girl as well hah.. same age as me .. =D

the journey with them, i told them to treat me like a normal japanese teenager and they DID!! no tourist attraction =___= .. all teenagers hangout .. pure fun nia.. tried takoyaki and love it.. the sauce is epic level =D smaller than singapore.. but nicer =D maybe cuz is japan? lawl im biased rofl rofl...

its bloody rain for the whole day .. but its okay.. can hold umbrella and share umbrella .. warui ku ne~ =DD.. oh yeah we tried out Round1, bowling centre.. but have many many many other games as well .. 1.4k yen and you can FREE TO PLAY everything~!!! well we WALKED to shinsaibashi and over there .. take photos >___< girls are girls.. took like half an hour to edit those photos haha .. but it turn out to be good!! hand-written .. but seems so nice machiam like machine one.. =D

haha ... before going back .. tried the REAL SUSHI!! fking nice sio~!! so fresh that you see them serving convey belt ice cream =DD .. hah but each plate cost 105 yen ($1.70) and we ate like 50+ plate? Udon is damn nice~!!! the tau pok pure sweet n juicy
LOVE~!!

after reaching home.. uploaded the photos and then skype tgoether with host family and my family!!.. self-introduction is entertaining to EPIC level.. hah made host family say english and chinese.. n made my family say japanese.. bwahahha ~!!!

ahh .. its 1.30am and I HAVENT BATHED!!! screwed that .. nai nai~!(fion と　言うて）

2010-09-12T21:10:00.003+08:00

Even if we were to send a thousand sms,
the gap between our hearts wouldn't even move by 1 centimeter..

2010-09-02T20:52:00.003+08:00

haven been studying much these few days
even so, i am confident that i'll be alright as usual..

as for exam.. passing isn't difficult.. but scoring is
even so, i am confident that i'll be alright as usual

there are so many things on hand..
but you're still my number 1 priority as always

u hate driving lessons
u hate driving tests
u hate school exams
u hate yr love for sleeping
u hate the lack of motivation
u hate yourself...

but still... i like you...

JAP!!

2010-08-31T21:40:00.001+08:00

Jap and more jap, thats whats im studying currently..
Many said that im equipped enough.. but still i don't want ORZ over there..
so more jap =D

so far.. gathering of material is kinda complete, manage to get the English translation and grammars explanation.

Finished studying on WT and most of INS liao. But EAD still at 0%. Nevermind i got kinda lots of time to cover that anyway.

Right now, i wondering when holyryuuga coming back to SG :D

Update 10.201

2010-08-24T00:47:00.003+08:00

omgosh.. its like 10+ days since i blog.. nevermind wasnt in the mood of bloggin anyway .. but went through quite ALOTS of stuffs..

So whats being happening?

Studying for jap : yep, i've registered for N4 (while kelvin n hiromi san want to go for N3 =___=.. very tempting =D) nonetheless i started the hardcore studying of jap together with fion-chan.. hah we'lll be sitting together during the exam..

Osaka trip briefing : attended the first briefing and thx to kelvin-san.. im been appointed wif Sub-leader while the leader position went to Hiromi, no doubt, she is fit to be one obviously =D
also.. we need to prepare tons of stuffs and iteration for our trip as well.. and a 30mins presentation of singapore and ngee ann polytechnic and also tons of research so has not to get lost over there >___<

yongbin's animelo : hoho.. my best friend have already reach the holyland liao.. there still 3 days more before animelo10. Must be a happy boy down there.. bwahahha wish him all the best over there and make sure he saw some level 999 jap girl over there and made him change his mindset of 3D xP .. not so worrying for him to be there.. since its japan after all =D (hopefully he dont find sg ppl suck even more when he return)

mentoring : MENTORING IS LURV .period

anime : hmm wathced quite a lots recently.. got myself into hayate no gotoku .. asking myself WHY THE HECK I DIDNT WATCH IT EARLIER?!?!? .. lawl ookami and asobi ni ikuyo is lurv~ haha.. waiting for nyankoi 2 to come out.. hmm HOTD is getting more and more ecchi(even though i havent watch the latest episode yet) hmm after all .. its isnt that much right?

reformat : did i mention that i reformat my comp? lawl.. manage to get 3 of the OS inside my comp. however.. i didnt even use xp or linux at all =____= .. anyway comp running very good and im running it at OFFLINE MODE .. meaning (5% of the overall processing) thus .. my comp is very very cold.. and my adapter is like 30+ degree nia.. hah save electricity..

exam : SHYT I HAVENT EVEN START! (gonna start tomorrow)

well-being : =DDDDDDDDD (thats shd sum it )

well.. i guess thats all .. another 38 more days before going osaka~ huat ah!

2010-08-13T14:30:00.003+08:00

Hmm trying out furigana inserter and some other useful tools which help me for hgaming lawl

AGTH / Furigana Inserter : http://www.hongfire.com/forum/showthread.php?t=75958
Furgiana Inserter : http://code.google.com/p/itadaki/
https://addons.mozilla.org/en-US/firefox/addon/7913/

MeCab(dictionary) : http://sourceforge.net/projects/mecab/files/mecab-win32/0.98/mecab-0.98.exe/download

hmm grab this if you wan since i need furigana to help me to understand my kanji even better else.. its just plainly killed my brain ~___~

Meanwhile, what im trying to achieve is :

Turn in-game text to (hiragana , kanji wif furigana on it..)
translate them into english for understanding =D

Edit(basically this is what im trying to do)

2010-08-10T00:10:00.002+08:00

twinkle crusader once again.. this time lolotte arc.. her arc is kinda funny especially when it shows how twisted her charcter and ジィア's haha
suprisingly nanaka tagged along with her kinda friendly.. and misa is yet another freaking tsundere no matter how you look at it ~____~

ok i went to print my stuffs and it turn out to be om-gish thick lawl.. super fail but nvm.. every mistake is a leson learnt..so im going to do a better job next time bwahaha...

2010-08-09T00:44:00.001+08:00

決して捕まえることの出来ない
花火のような光だとしたって
もう一回、もう一回
僕はこの手を伸ばしたい

これは「HanabiーMr.Children」の歌詞

今の気持はこの歌詞と同じ

君の言葉は私に言及されていません

なぜ、僕はまだそのように思っています？

この混乱を感じる時は何もしたくない。

唯一の事は日本語を勉強することです。

今年はN4を受けるされる

準備ができていません

でも時間が有るんだから。。

自信があるん。

私は一人じゃない。。

フィオんさんとゼーミさんます

一緒に頑張りましょう！！

GP

2010-08-06T17:29:00.000+08:00

Reflection time~

While typing this reflection, my beloved team-mate, haryono is still compiling everyone's work together before the final submition. With that, it shows that the whole game producing process does required teamwork.

I couldn't know where to start writing but to try starting off chronlogically. This is probably going to be my last reflection which i'm going to write for my whole poly life, it might get sentimental or whatsoever due to the current song which im listening. Apart from that, do enjoy what i wrote.

Game Design : All i can said is that we managed to start off with a proper objective and gameplay style. However, we are abit too ambitious to include many different mode of gameplay such as "Level-based" and "Defend the castle based". Many of the our ideas are recorded down, not in this wiki page, but in the our minds as we keep generating ideas. This stage is kinda fun and troublesome especially when we are been bound by our team's programming abilities.

Game Development : This is a pain-in-the-ass.
After the game design, i was trying to find some original platform of different game, so i can reap them as our game platform. From "Platformer" to "Netrumbler", i had spent too much time trying to modify them to suit my need. However all these are futile as i eventually code the platform by myself. With that platform up, i'm pretty proud to say that our game developing is heading at the right direction.

As the main platform builder, my job is crucical especially no one is able to code their stuffs without a basic platform. It's like trying to build a house without it's foundation. From what i learn during developing, is that one should use the code where he really know, and try to avoid codes that you got totally no clue on.

Another of my job is to get the Player class up, this is kind of challenging except on the logic part since the purpose and function of Player is about the same across many games of different genre. Something i learned was the OO Approach of programming, meaning accessing different classes and how it make your codes more readable. Despite learning the importance of "private", "public" class in OOP, i don't seems to apply that since its was troublesome and redundant.

Teamwork : What can i said about my team after we stayed together for more than 80 hours straight(even to the extent of staying up in Brice's house and almost all 3 of us fell sick(except the one going europe later)).

My team IS very balanced, with godly programmer like Haryono and Menu designer like Danial and our very own aspired-graphic designer, Brice

Over there, when we met an error, all 4 pairs of eyes were there and analysising code and we managed to solve it. there is many a time when our team got pissed like over the integration of menu and how we managed to resolve them in the end. Our team is very balanced indeed, everyone knowing what is his own contribution of the whole developement. it kinda heart-warming to see what even though brice who isn't that good in programming, but he always did his best, trying to give ideas for the games and he's the one who in-charged of our team graphics and sound. It might seem easy, but its a very crucial part of the game since you don't want a game without any sound.

Thank : Google.com and the netizens for their codes and solutions in the Internet, 3 XNA books borrowed from NP Library even though we didn't use them much

Personal Comment regarding to Game Programming : it's a very fun module which don't spoonfed us as much in the latter and it's a module to test your programming skills and concept and how we bring real-time situation into programming context. However, 2 weeks for coding the game is kind of short especially we changed many of our features and function back while developing.

Thank everyone, Brice, Haryono and Haryono!
Happy holiday~ =DD

:D

2010-08-04T23:57:00.002+08:00

Stayed over at brice house with hary for chionging our gp assignment.
everything was kinda like a joke.. especially ytd.(4 days before deadline) and we are still at 0% done..

well.. it's wasnt a joke that the assignment is 40% of the whole module.. =____=
nonetheless after much chionging.. managed to get it back up and working and we are elft with tml ..one final day..

yep.. no doubt was vry tired and sleepy.. and didnt sleep well also..
but right now.. thx to someone .. im like =DDDDD and energtic back..

with hyo assurance.. we will be doing kinda well even though the time is short ..

XD

2010-08-03T00:17:00.001+08:00

These countless stars in the night,
move slowly down the horizons,
Watching over the distant tomorrow's dreams...

First August, the first day of the august in year 2010

2010-08-01T01:34:00.002+08:00

First August, the first day of the august in year 2010.
A perfect time to write something down...

After reading through yongbin blog on SPHERE and how he wasted his life away.. it made me think of what am i going to do in the future .. or whats my future was going to be about.

University? I never thought about that before, i wanted to go rush for practical job experience by working straight for the first few year, then i decide what i really want to study or to go pro into

Talent? No one is talented .. maybe have some, but just too little. Smart work is > hard work. A friend of mine recently told me whether what is the fastest method to distract herself away from her doubts and fears.. I replied.. get a hobby or drunk yourself into something you realli like to do.

Today's morning made me reflected back on the actual reason why i like her in the first place.
It's been quite some time since i saw her like that. Was actually worried , but till she said she is doing.. or so its seems. Today.. her laughter, smiles(lots of them) , childish .. care-free.. her "magic tricks" and her reaction seems perfectly >___< .. kinda warm-hearted to see her like these..

As for me, today.. i made my mentee cried. A lesson which i hope he can remember, even though he was crying, and im the one who made him cried.. but still it was a learning process for him. Not to worry even though i rejected all the helps from the mentors around me. After that talk.. that cry, im kinda proud of him that he stopped crying and manage to stand back up and continue to walk forward like nothing had happened, like what a real man should do. Never cry, never show your weakness and continue to march forward

As for the further day down my life, i decided to continue on what i believe in.
Even though she like someone or what, i will still continue to like her for who she is.
wishing her to forever have that smile on her face..
with that.. i hope this can answer what you're all have been asking..

Happy Birthday to myself

2010-07-29T22:56:00.002+08:00

Today, i couldn't know why i went school for, even though i told myself not to come.
But still i went to school and i didn't regret that hah.

Thank wingsze for the birthday lunch hah .. realli appreciate that >___< and yup had a long long chat and sharing my primary school stuffs.. something which i can say that mircales and drama does happened in reality. it really does make me recall back those days very clearly.. it might be one-sided but its was juz too perfect.. haha.

after that.. i moved onto my hideout in school.. the one which is the most deserted and quiet place. A place, where i can be drunk myself into the music, a place where it have something which i always wants., a perfect place.

i couldnt help but to play a piece to her, so far she is the first one who i actually play it to.. live on piano.. that piece, which wishes her tomorrow to be a better day.. that's is what i truly wish her for..

after that.. i spent couple of hours in there.. making me think through alot and lots.. onto what brice had said.. onto what others had said.. onto whats she had said..

the evening .. it was my jtc .. a time for me to have fun. sadly not all of them were there.. projects and projects.. i hate project infact.. cuz it was screwing all my friends life.. especially my best friend in poly..

there i was, outside the clubroom.. at the carpark.. looking up at the dark dark sky..
even though i couldn't see it, but i know stars are always there..
always there...
but not seeing it .. made me feel just so empty

with that, i went back into the room.. this time with the topic on kudo, animes and cosplaying , parody and Trolls.. hah these are the funniest element of jtc which u hardly have it elsewhere.. it managed to made me went back to e usual me.. but it only last for a short while.. a very short while...

the trip back home alone.. i was looping the song, One more chance.. the jerky bus and the streetlight.. together with the soft light puckling sound of the guitar.. it made me wondered once again.. people are always busy .. always busy .. that's why it's an achievement to enjoy your everyday..

the lyrics.. seems so true.. time waited no one.. it's just so true..
3 years.. 800 days.. have just past.. what have i done?
it's 366 days since i got rejected..
its 366 days since then..
or more like its 400 days since then ..

while walking dimly lilted road down my house.. i couldn't help but to look at the sky once more.
it was cloudy .. way too cloudy to even see anything..
this was when the lyrics was

I am always searching somewhere for you
At dawn's town, At Sakuragi street
Anybody should be fine if it was just to ease loneliness
Because the stars in the night sky seems like falling, I cant lie to myself
Even though I know you won't come here

searching for something.. i couldnt know whether what i was looking for when i lifted up my head.. was it the stars or was it her?

Happy Birthday to Me

2010-07-28T00:09:00.004+08:00

Here its goes.. those wishes

wingsze(: says:
*Hey, you must have thought that I don't know right! HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAH BENG! :D I am really glad to have know you man! Have a blessed year ahead! Enjoy your Japan trip! Don't forget my chocolates! Haha, just joking! Just enjoy the experience okay! Take good care (: Have a blast! Now, make a wish!

Brice =] says:
*BY THE WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
*HAPPPPYYY BIRTHHHDAYY
Kah Beng カーベン　카 벤 : 星空　－　二人の願い says:
*4th
Brice =] says:
*AHAHA WTF?
*I SEE THE CLOCK 12 DEN I SAY LO
*those other ppl clock cock up la
*BASKET I SHOULD HAVE SAID AT 11.50 LA
*SURE WIN

yvette says:
*happy birthday!!!!! (^) HAHA.

Brice Chan ITSSS MUAAA BESTT FWENNSSS BIRTHDAYY!!!! 3 years...2 years to be exact...we stood side by side with TOTALLY DIFFERENT aims and ideas....but one thing we have in common....WHAT?? 10% ONLY?? CHEYY!! FAILL COMMON TEST ALSO NVM!! EXAM PWN ALL LA!! xD Teo Kah Beng Haryono Yeo Kelvin Lim Lim Li Rong Hui Ting Lin Anji

Holy Ryuuga Happy Birthday!
Sends a kiss from Yukarin

Desmond Lee happy birthday. next year. i'll be faster than huiting and lirong. lol.

Jasmine Chng heyyyyy! happy birthday!(:

Terrence Teo Happy birthday kah beng !

Criz Lee Happy birthday!!! :D

Ernest Bay happy bdae. thx ur mum for giving birth to u haha

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wingsze(: says:
*(:
*make 1 more now cannot say! :D
*HAHA :D
*have a blast okay!
*must stay happy okay!
*anything can always tell me

Lucia Ichigo たんじょうびおめでとう, Kah Beng-さん！19才ですね！^~^

2010-07-25T21:25:00.001+08:00

do you know how much i really want to hold your hand too?

2010-07-25T11:38:00.003+08:00

Nothing beat having my birthday under fireworks.. (yet..)

Thank Lirong, Kelvin , Brice, Huiting.. yup you got me realli surprised =D
i least expect it especially when i already dragged my time due to works and cca..
but still you all come out surprisngly .. with the all the stun planes performing in the background.

Especially when brice, kelvin and lirong came out of nowhere and saying happy birthday.. im like "CRAP.. i fell in to this..-"

Lemme trace back to what happened before this epic moment.. (nah juz another epic moment..)

Mentoring was epic especially we all have fun and a certain some mentee is so cute thats we all wanted to take her as our god-daughter roflmao .. hmm.. fun is fun=D playing checkers , mentorings.. playing catching in playground.. heh made us all feel young again .. no doubt mentoring is <3

today was suppose to have lunch with her.. but she wasn't able to make it.. but im okay with it.. juz that abit pity for her to miss out the fun .. and for me to enjoy more fun xD.. but im sure she is enjoying herself as well (hopefully >___<)

after mentoring was the trip back to school when the mentors was chatting abt today's session and how funny it was .. especially someone nickname become handsomex2.. such thing are funny isn't it heh =D

been school for my jap oral preparation.. yup 2 sick people in school trying to chiong finish our oral test next wekk.. hah its was fun and well .. manage to expose myself to mma's stuffs and they are indeed fun.. be it year 1 , year 2 or year 3.. all seems fun =DD

with that.. i headed to meet ht since im realli late and couples of thing happened like we are in different cabins and hah.. manage to locate her cabin and went with her.. off i go to City Hall.. and thats where all the surprise begun...

i got alot of things to say.. but i left it to my birthday itself =D

2010-07-19T19:26:00.002+08:00

Once a upon a time, there was a boy who need to rush for his interview, missing all his buses toward the venue, he decide to bus hops around. Upon reaching the building, he called for the staff-incharge and she told him to meet at 9th storey.

He was waiting outside at the lobby for quite some time before he entered. None of them looks familiar, thus he went to ask for help and the staff directed him toward the meeting room beside. He knocked and entered but only to realized that it was not the person he supposed to meet. With that, he seeked the same staff for help again, calling the in-charge using her extension.

There she was, telling the boy that he was at the wrong department and told him to move to the opposite building. With that, the boy left and went toward the building beside. However he couldn't entered with his current pass, thus he approach the security guard for help.

The security guard told him whether he wanted to go to Plaza 1 or Plaza 2, the boy couldn't know but to call the in-charge. She picked up the call and told the boy to go to Plaza 2, the one beside Plaza 1. With thah, the boy confirmed with that guard that he wanted to go to Plaza 2.

The guard told the boy to go opposite and take a bus "100" to go to Plaza 2. The boy was puzzled and asked the guard whether was Plaza 2 located down the road. With a grin on his face, he replied Plaza 2 was at Raffles Place.

His reply left the boy even more puzzled. With that, the boy called back the in-charge and asked. "Is Plaza 2 at Raffles Place?"

Her reply was "Yep, it's at Raffles Place..."

What more funny was that, the boy was actually me =_______________=

2010-07-19T10:37:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a tiring day..
especially waking up at 5am and went for BIG WALK
maybe thank to that, i was kinda zombish and tired
but it was fun, but tiring.. physically and mentally

thank to that, i managed to sleep early..
early enuff to get myself into deep sleep

i dreamt of you..
the cheerful you which was actually holding everything in yrself
yet, you cried..

it's might just be a dream.. i couldn't know
i checked.. indeed its wasn't juz a simple dream..
most of my dreams ain't juz fantasy.. they do happened

feeling helplessly and dunno what to do.. how to do..
the least i could, is to wish that you always have the smile with you...

2010-07-17T21:09:00.002+08:00

Making some random touhou theme game using XNA studio.

Settled : Horizontal Scrolling , Speed Handling, basic graphics

To do : Apple , Enemies , Animations and many more

cya~

kyo wa

2010-07-16T23:56:00.005+08:00

went to school early to help up in ya yan event..

apparently.. her printer stil lgive her problems.. even after all those configuration last night..
hah then she kind of panicked and rush me to fix it .. thats was cutewwwww >___<
nonetheless.. im already anticapted these , and brought my gears with me , spare cables and SD card for emergency .. and surprisingly.. SD card works even though i dunno which one to use..

speaking of that, i transfered all my photos in the SD card to her comp so as to let her use the card when something happened.... OMGOSH~ hope she dont hand-itchy and look at my pics lawl.. 1k+ of pic =____= (i dont even rmb the content also ..)
helped up a little and yeah .. my fav badge was the EPIC face =D

wisp was kinda long despite there is only 3 group.. and after that.. went to return the comm service camp t-shirt back to dy ..and headed back to help up in the booth..
wooo.. this time, melvin was there and was chatting and trolling .. then .. jtc members all came and support .. woo kinda heart-warming to see both mma , jtc are working together :P

all the way at there till 6 until ya yan told me to help her return rotaract club t-shirts to dy as well =____= .. like some slave sia.. but nvm~

jap class.. very veyr SHORT~! D:
kinda fun (as always :D)
lawl this time fion like lost her voice.. as she was sick =____=
then everyone was bastarding her lawl.. i got nothing to say except to warn them that whats could happened after she got well .. =DDDDD
so.. realli get well nao~ .. need you for my jap oral test =DDDD

ahh.. with that .. my game programming was moving.. yeah i was coding javis's game..
Marisa's Wrath.. hmm finished coding the movement and the basic enemies and powerup

here is the screenshot
still long way more to code.. hah finally i was writing some game physic for movement
marisaPosition.X = velocity * gameElasapedtime

yeah only that =_____=
more function to come later on ~

Spolit of War for Today
6 Badges (3 EPIC FACE, 1 ICT , 1 Health Science, 1 WAFU~ >___<)
3 Bun (1 coffee, 2 choco chip..)
1 container of peanut cookie
1 bag of italy chocolate

ouch my wallet....

ガンスリンガー·ガール

2010-07-11T17:56:00.000+08:00

ガンスリンガー·ガール見を終わった～！ヾ(＠°▽°＠)ﾉ

字幕なしで最後のエピソードを見した。。

とや字幕なし、ストリが分かります～　＾＿＿＾

トリエラはツインテール髪て超かこいい女子です

一番大好きなだww

ああアアアアアアアアアア～

そな良いアニメを見ったから、次はどんなアニメを見ていいｗｗｗ

皆さんが進めて下さいヽ(゜▽、゜)ノ

HAPPY NANA DAY

2010-07-07T22:19:00.002+08:00

It's 7th July .. 7/7

also Nanaka birthday.. can't believe that it was so coincidence that i actually manage to see her bday without going through the game guide.. lawl.. god knows why i clicked twinkle crusader =___= .. maybe nanaka was calling for me?

also.. i learned something new.. waku waku~ in japanese mean EXCITED.. i was putting there and then my friend asked what got me excited .. hah..

oh yeah.. to mark off this day.. i got a "younger sister" .. lawl it was from my camp last time.. hah suddenly wan me to be her kor.. lol so fun-loving girl anyway =DD

LIFE GOOD!

2010-06-30T21:30:00.005+08:00

You know what?

Life is GREATTTTTTTTTTTTTTT after comm service camp..

tons of things got settled .. yeah welfare stuffs.. those minor minor stuffs.. hmm to sum up hows things are going.. i mean how many GREATTTTT thing are happening ... okay!! lemme start off with

woohooo kudwafer is OUTT~~!!!!!! aint this great.. crap make me wan to play Little Busters! EX and chiong finish it and cry a bucket... before getting my hand onto kudwafer.. yeah one's future is ... >____<

next.. so kudwafer is out .. and also ANGEL BEATS 13 .. the final episode of angel beats.. if you say the ending suck.. go kill yrself.. cuz you might have 0.0000000000000000000314255242 knowlegde of the whole serie.. in short you suck and i dont wan go explain how suck you are.. lawl tachibana kanade is luv <3

with angel beats ended.. hmm something OMG happened.. BAKEMONGATARI 14 is OUT ... OMFG? after 2 season!?!?! bahahha .. how great can it be .. after missing my nadeko after so long.. yeah .. >____<

it's wednesday now .. 3 more day before COSMO and its time to meet yongbin and the gang after soooooooo long xD .. hopefully it will be a fun day during saturday .. also.. SUNDAY WILL BE COSFEST!!!!!
hmm also cosfest.. i also got streetwise.. nvm hard choice to choose.. but IM NOT LACKING OF EVENT WOOOHOOO~~

wait wait.. not only thayt... i finished CODE BLUE season 1 .. and SP .. ARGHHH IT FREAKING AWWWW ....AWEEESOME!!!! yeah season 2 will be pure fun i guess.. you think every episode is .. those crap and dramatic like things like sg drama.. then you soooo freaking wrong.!!! it's pwnt all singapore drama .. except THe noose
the noose on the other hand which i have been watching... some roflmao self-hating show which proved that singapore is indeed a self-hating country =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

ALSO ALSO!!!!

my long-awaited AMRITA - Yui makino GOT TRANSCRIPTED !!!!!!!! OMG .. after so long/.. *cries* .. omg omg.. that the best song evvaaarrr from her .. *sniff sniff* .. hmm i need a female vocalist.. unless you wan me to take anji to sing that .. hmm anyway i prefer a girl .. like yongbin?
LAWL ALW LAWL....

on the other hand.. im starting on Brave Song - Angel Beats.. and im currently 16% .. long from completing it .. juz started TODAY...

also.. i got back my results .. yeah A+ for WIRELESS TECH .. thats is like hmm expected.. on the other hand.. i got a C for INS .. lawl didnt expect that.. but nvm .. at least i learn from the mistake.. and hows roflmao my networking diagram are.. and thx to that i lose 10 marks .. lawl =____=

arhhh.. as for my twinkle crusader.. hmm im starting on lolotte route.. and omg kenneth is damn right.. lolotte voice is soo moe!!!! omg.. hiku hiku~!!! waku waku~!!! .. hiyo~!! biku biku~!!! ... WAUUUUU~!!! HAUUUUUU~~~!!! omg.. so moe-filled... >_________<

haha life's great~ (wait isn't every stuff are 2D over here?)

就是我们

2010-06-29T23:40:00.001+08:00

就是我们- 张家铭（That's us - kah beng)

躺在星空下的草地上 (lying on the grass beneath the grass)
毫无疑义的我摊让你看 (a carefree me is all you see)
事实心事多如银河的星 (thou my problems is as many as the star abv)
就算如此躺在身边的你 (even so, the you lying beside me)... See More
秀发漂移和大大的眼睛 (with yr silky hair and big big eye)
盯著你身边的我傻笑着 (looking and me with your hearty smile)
想要说却不知道说什么 (i wanted to say, but couldn't know what to say)
不管他们说什么怎么看 (it's doesnt matter what they see or look)
我都不管 (i aint gonna care)
就让时间当我们的证人 (lets time be our witness)
我们的爱的证人... (the witness of our love..)

2010-06-28T02:01:00.002+08:00

28 June
exactly one more month before my birthday...

couldn't believe that it's going to be a year since that.. something which i never going to forget...
of course.. thanks to those who support me all the while.. realli thank you..

i been living my life with gratitude, thanking everyone i met on the path .. helping people like how they've helped me.. yeah its seems like it's the reason for me to live on at this moment, to help others and bring smiles to them.

smiles...
hah.. while listening to yui makino song right now.. while writing this.. lots of mixed feeling..

how does it feel when i couldnt even make someone smile.. instead hurt someone..
i dunno what happend,, i dun wan to assume neither.. and i know nothing when nothing is told..

i was abt to write plenty much more.. but i couldnt continue..
yeah.. i suck =/

Angel Beats! - My Soul,Your Beats!

2010-06-24T12:19:00.002+08:00

WOOHOOO GUYS~!!

I'm still in my Camp Mood bahahha.. like i said.. its my best camp this year (before mentoring or rotaract or jtc.. xD)

Angel Beats! left with 1 episode .. good job maeda, you did a good job in making this wonderful story into an anime.. haha

As a tribution to AB! Fans.. here is the piece of the AB! opening , My Soul,Your Beats!
Tachibana Kanade is realli angelic when she sat down and play this >___< TENSHI!!

After-thought >___<

This piece took me around 3 weeks to learn it after melvin show this to me at his house.

through synthesia, this piece to me is like wtf? told him this wasn't my level but still i go for it .. after some drilling.. finally managed to play this.. i rate this as my fastest piece beside Kanashimi No Mukoe ..

this piece is challenging becuz of the tempo.. and i gotta admit that i changed most of the chords and my timing isnt exact.. maybe i should call it "My Soul, Your Beat @ My Pace" hah.. no doubt, i keep screwing up piece and change them into mine >___<

Anyway, why did i choose violin + string instead of piano? cuz its sound very weird .. the actual piece required me to shift eveyrthing down by one octave.. therefore my vid need to go deeper by octave (instead of playing it at middle C) well.. i don't own a piano and this song required 88 keys and i lack of 20 keys lawl..

PS : YUI RAWKS X)

Community Service Leadership Camp 2010

2010-06-21T18:25:00.003+08:00

Firstly, THIS CAMP RAWKS!!! YOU GUYS RAWKS! the most enjoyable camp of 2010!!
a camp where everyone is so steady and so on hah !!

before that.. lemme start off with the history of the whole camp.

This camp was being planned by me and the others comm members from different ccas, im sure that yiting might be pissed off wif me in the starting when i always failed to reply them .. even till the last few weeks of preparation. in fact this camp was planned 2 months before hand.. attend couple of meetings which doesnt seems useful as im in charge of welfare =D

before the camp start , i had another job of having to continue to do the design of the t-shirt where i need to change from colored to B/W and thats took me tons of time and well .. since it was something being thrown to me like some ball .. i kinda get impatient about it and whine alot.. even on e day where i need to submit that even before my common test start in the afternoon ..

next .. the night before the pre-camp .. where i was told to get all e food for the helpers and comm for pre-camp .. thats moment i swear i'm WTF .. its too late to call for vendors and all those.. hah luckily till the next day .. i managed to settle it through my mom's friend who rushed the order for me xD

carrying bags of food for everyone, the camp had started!

Pre-camp :

met with different sort of people.. include the annoying orange , her friend and don and several others who i still couldn't rmb their name over then. Lunch started with everyone eating in makan and was chit-chatting all the way. its a entertaining lunch with orange sharing abt how "SUPER HIGH CLASS" banquet she wan for her wedding.. everything is wtf .. except the main course when she say she wan to have kaki fuyong lawl...

.. followed by ice-breaking games where everyone break the ice easily. as most of us are committee members from different ccas.. games are being improvised here and there.. every mins and every game.. details keep changing, discarded , added..

with a mini telematch and ice-breaker.. its time for dinner where me and ya yan(my welfare's assistant .. where im actually assisting her instead xD) need to buy food for them...

followed dinner was time to carry out any reviews and improvement .. hah then also a committee dance which ya yan taught us .. hmm it's kinda catchy .. so catchy that i swear its still ringing inside my head ( put the hawk in the sky , side to side, kick to right) .. lawl lawl

after dancing, went out with her to prepare for the breakfast tml and thats when i realized she suffered from night - blindness =___=..
went there and decide their breakfast as well as taking some random order from the members like cookies, coffee and sweets xD

nite time wasn't much as we slept in different room and well .. it's like 3am to 6am the other day ... with that it's mark the end of pre-camp

Day 1 :

woke up by yiting's ringtone =___= and well its a very nice sleep inside my sleeping bag.. =D
with that , breakfast was served.. yeah nutella with bread is LURV .. with that .. move out to LT51 to prepare the coming of the campers.. hmm tooks photos as well as setting up the AV system..

woohoo .. campers filling in fast and i was told to incharge of the orange team!! yeah lots of fun-loving people inside and well .. we rocks ain't we ^____^ V ice breaking is so fun that we actually come out wif different sort of game to entertain ourselve.. like how we shared our own embrassed moments or memorable moments.. =D games like tunka tunka and 7-up ..

followed by GREAT EGG DROP in the admin field where everyone got chao ta there especially the black team =___= .. went ard and asked whether they are okay or not..

next was lunch, too bad cant accompany my team.. collected foods and set up drinks for them.. yeah actually we got too much food especially how another cca actually redirect their foods from NDP rehersal to NP .. and from 76 packets of food.. we got another 60 pax of PIZZA!!

obviously.. there's too much food and end up, we have a FOOD CHALLENGE!!
took part and help brice finishing his food.. actually i do eat alot.. ^^ as their welfare IC.. need to clean up the places with her and we realli do look like slaves lawl...

continue again with a club sharing session when i learn how to make paper fox in 10mins =D i learn fast aint i? fufufufu~

then another station game where i went around the whole sch.. walking here and there and taking part in some game..i love the wheelchair station where we play ard wif wheelchair and basketball.. yeah it's so fun >___< maybe it's basketball haha...

then dinner and need to go out again to buy drinks .. which end up busting the camp budget lol!!
dinner was nice.. even though aalmost everyone said it's look like lunch ROFL~ hmm during dinner.. was having a little sharing session among oranges, the girls .. lawl its a session where orange asked me whether which part of girl do i look at .. was it the feet? then it end up as the guys enlightening them about where guys actually looked in girls.. hah the legs of course~!! followed by the hair and the height .. all those.. hmm then the topic start to get drift alittle.. as more and more people joined and "shared" their views.. hah now at least the guys know more about the girls and how girls know more abt guys now =DD

after dinner was yet another sharing session and yeah .. i learnt some sign language from wingsze who ISN'T from Hi! Club.. yeah broken television is funny .. and especially when the Hearing Imparied club did everything wihtout a sound.. CLAP!
Leo club is really funny on how they come out wif skits and comedy .. in short they are jokes.. lawl at zul the president of that club... nice laugh here and there ..

followed that was a interesting leadership talks by mr dy where he asked me what is leadership .. give him a lame answer and well .. its was pretty funny on how i related thing from one another .. "Leadership = lead a ship full of people..and how i linked them to england stuffs" well .. nvm
its was a crazy night and we begins to know one and another better.. xD and before his talks end ..

i was grouped as Task-Oritented Introvert meaning.. i'm someone who is quiet, analyzing things , independent yet heck-caring most of people .. meaning not peer-influenced..

with that.. everyone is tired and went to sleep .. but there is the MIDNIGHT KIDNAP GAME.. where everyone got up at night suddenly.. and was told that their member went missing .. lawl it's funny yet tiring ~ ya yan was there and taking photos of them .. telling them to post and keep saying they dont wan to pose.. hah i'm like "hey you're lucky if they didnt "hoot" you .. rofl .." who on earth can smile while u woke up suddenly by siren in the middle of the night..

the game is kinda fked up where they got to go around sch to search for them.. but before that they gotta do the stations which is to run 1 round around the tracks.. while having the programme.. me and her racky around the school for people who might not feeling well.. cutting through path where we never been to during the days... also ..one of the most scary part of the school which is the dark platform on top of the swimming pool yeah walked there with her and lucky nth happened ..lawl
woohoo the school isn't that scary sometimes =D well.. maybe it's was the other reason..

was helping the groups to piggyback their member back to the tracks.. i wonder why i carried a 50kgs.. seems SOOO LIGHT? having not much problem .. except i nearly slipped while carrying down the steps..

hope wingsze legs aint having much problem since she got blisters

everyhting end when dy give them a debrief and of course.. everyone got exhausted ..
with that.. me and brice went to have some EARLY morning 2.0km in the field.. yeah its very cooling and shiok .. hmm wasn't even tired from it ... i can sense that my stamina is realli increasing.. =DD

with that.. chat alittle with the rest on ghost story and how brice was seeing faces on the trees.. hmm afetr that.. went to stroll ard with lirong, brice.. hmm sch at night is realli cooling.. wait its was 5.30am back then.. had a coffee with them at blk 56 .. and chat around .. kinda fun and nostalgic ...

everything ended after me and brice slept on the running track.. with stars above us.. yeah it's kinda nice to sleep in open field >___<

Day 2 :

morning start when i got greeted by the omg clouds and sun in the morning.. it's like the moment you woke up .. you are lying on somewhere with bird flying above you.. yeah it's the early morning .. =D

went to collect breakfast even though i have like 1hr of sleep? morning was pretty much shagged.. =___= but im still okay hah .. surprisingly quite awaken .. though hehehhe~
for the whole afternoon where i didnt join everyone since i need to rush the photo slides for the camp.. hmm while doing that .. gotta settle the lunch as well.. everything was taken care of ..

next it's the birthday cakes for all the junes babies..!! hah with that .. for the zillion time, went out to get the cakes and ITS SUNDAY.. so the backgate was locked and we have to get there through a long loop and me and her got "chao ta" liao .. got back wif the cakes and was having a late lunch ...

with everything.. dy come and we all celebrate his birthday ..
after that .. every groups gotta presents and i was required to learn my skit in short 10mins and the dance as well.. yeah i know we did well =D hah .. the next hour was filled with WTFLMAO ROFL performance by the other groups which got me laughing like some crazy uncle..
together was the debrief the camps.. and the video which summarise the camp.. was really happy on what happened during the 3 days.. everyone thx!!
yeah.. so the camp have ended .. but not the celebration .. yeah once again .. that wasn't in plan .. but the welfare had done a great job.. thx ya yan for her professional skills of cutting the cakes .. and i was like =___= distributing and cleaning up her mess .. lawl

with that .. our camps ended off .. it's a short 3 days 2 night camp.. yet it affected me quite alot.. all the planning and execution .. and i as a comm member of the camp.. indeed have worked my best in term of welfare .. provide foods and making sure they are okay .. (even though i didnt know orange was having fever though) lawl

with thats ... i would like to give my thanks

THANKS YEW HENG for being such an excellent game ic as well as incharge of everyone xD your leadership and charisma is realli good! indeed you are someone of the substance to LEAD!

THANK YITING, camp commander! for planning this camp and having meetings and meet up .. well ii know you didnt sleep much .. and yet didn't show them to the campers!! THANKS!

THANKS LIXIAN , asst cc, for planning this camp and making sure that everything works well .. thx for yr camera for day 1 =DD .. get well soon esp when you're not feeling well during day 1 .. THX!

THANK KAREN.. i didnt see you much but you realli look like one of my sec sch friend.. lawl thx for the inital design of the shirt!!

THANK DON, for being a really silent guy(might due to excess of handsigning) !! even though quiet.. but yr solutions are good!!! and yeah yr dances are good =DD

THANKS YA YAN, yeah my asst welfare, someone who i spend quite some time alone with .. thx for helping me out!! i swear you're tsundere.. rofl .. thx for e sweets , the dances and everything else =D .. u look good w/ and w/0 spec =D

THANK GRACE, for helpiung out and yeah you're NOT a MALAY .. yeah i get this right finally.. rofl thx for been accompany around us =DD

THANK ORANGE , for all the lame jokes and chit-chatting you have.. yeahh now you know my fetish and taste.. dont spread thx .. yeah HIGH FIVE we are highly - aliked beings.. i realli dunno what to say.. becareful .. you know too MUCH xDDD

THANK DA YUAN , hey fishball .. thx for being the orange team-leader.. and yeah extremely friendly guys =D..

THANK MANSOR , hey we are both year 3 .. this is a very steady guy who joked alot .. tons of funny things =DD

THANK JEFF , hey yr photos are greats and you do have the same camera as mine.. except mine is PANASONIC LUMIX xDD

Thank Brice, hey you're not a helper actually .. there is some role for you which i keep saying i wan to tell you.. but nvm .. you will know when the time come hahahahaha...

THANK EVERYONE WHO MADE THIS CAMP SO FUN!!!

YOU GUYS ROCKS~

2010-06-17T14:53:00.002+08:00

Just finished playing Twinkle Crusader Ria's Arc

Hmm.. how should i say it .. its seems like negima when you trying to hit onto someone older than you lawl. No doubt ria is really cute but then as a senpai.. she don't know what to do. Well, herena keep leading her and teasing this younger sister of hers.

On the other hand, by going through this route, you decide to abandon Nanaka especially when the last choice, you can still choose Nanaka. Yeah.. the day when Synn and Ria was annoucned as couple.. Lolotte come in and say "ogekon omedetou~!!!" ROFL i swear she is an alien haha..

Nanaka on the other hand pluck up her courage and wished you all the best...
then ran away crying .. with her best friend behind keep saying that you are dense for not realizing her feeling all the while. =/

All the maidens~(exclude rizel)

It's end off with the fight on Christmas Night and you were fighting with Azel as she gotten the lilian power.. well kinda touching when she say "WHY WOULD YOU SAVE ME?"
Then synn answer .."to celebrate christmas together...<3"
then lolotte said.. something which i don't want to spoil you guys XD

>____<

Till the end, you gotten all the stamps and exchange it for holy time with ria on a holy night =D

どんなの良い事がありすか？

2010-06-15T17:56:00.002+08:00

どんなの良い事がありすか？
いよ～良い事は。。はー秘密　＼（＾ｏ＾）／

13 June

2010-06-13T00:26:00.002+08:00

My Bus concession was expired .. =____=
cannot anihow go out anymore ...sadsadasdasdsadadsda

anihow juz came back from the "Unofficial mentoring outing"
went to boon lay to sign up for BIG WALK 2010 and have lunch at long john silver.. then went to plaza sing for starbuck and movie.. lawl

The A.TEAM is some pure wtf lmao show .. epicly funny especially when you got characters, one siao one , one turned holy after all those violent, one mastermind.. lawl the most lmao part is when they trying to shoot down airplanes using tank.. while falling from mid air.

"SIR! 2 of our drone got shoot down by a tank.." lmao~!!!
yeah.. they are trying to fly a falling tank.. that part is lmao ~

realli.. that movie is a must watch :P

hah .. i wish to blog more.. but tired liao ~____~

Eye Opener

2010-06-13T00:08:00.002+08:00

Been to Malaysia , Jalan Indus , Perling...

hmm.. my first time there after 4 years.. then also first time where i actually walk around.
i think that malaysia is very much like singapore.. except that there is much more things and life there is sooo much more easier and carefree...

i always think that .. people wan bungalow , cars and lands.. but over there.. everyone realli own a nice piece of land and nice house and 2-3 cars..yup housing there cost like 100k-200k RM.. lawl about 90-150k SGD.. and cars also.. =____=

when there to see and helped out in my aunt house.. well didnt help out much.. except to play with my cousin.. bringing her around the park nearby and play swing .. lawl!! lots of people there are flying kites... realli relaxed sia~!!

food there were realli cheap especially the da bao .. its IMBA big lah .. and cost 90cent.. and yeah the foods there can spam like nothing .. haha!! and the wan tang mee there is cooked by some 10yr old boy.. but it taste GOOD~!!

been to my "malaysian cousins"'s house and well.. they are those ps2 gamers lawl.. but nice house.. 1 son and 3 daughters.. not bad not bad..

staying till 2am and clear custom at 2am+ lawl..

and btw.. was having the final test on the next day lawl~... was zombie mood for the whole day~!!

4-3 = 1

2010-06-10T00:28:00.005+08:00

1 more paper to go and everything shall end after that .. and there is when i swear im going to chiong lots of anime liao =DD

been missing them out for quite some times, mayoi neko overrun, Working!! and many others previous series which i realli need to catch up and realli watch them before this short holiday end..

however, my limit is only 13 episode per day lawl.. kinda too short =___=

anyway 3 papers were easy exccept for today;s which required tons of writing and writing and writing.. wouldn't score full mark.. but somehow still manage to do them. seems like the qns of auditing and Sarbane Oxley was pretty =____= , this prove that im not realli an ACC student bwahahah...

also from my facebook , the pic which i post that someone is going to cry me a river when i married .. yeah i will be waiting for that... (HEARD THAT ERNEST BAY?) on the other hand, someone is going to kill me if i marry .. lawl~ c'mon he one of that very person who will going to be standing beside me as the best man.. lawl

before this topic get tooooo far off, hmm gotta say .. kiss x sis ain't hentai rofl.. we were dicussing about how wtf is that series.. yeah .. soemthign which i can to rate it as hentai but it didn't cuz its basically is not.. no scenes and the only thing which cause all these scene and uproar are in fact your own imgaination.. GOOD JOB KxS =]

been to gendou and juz updated my songs to a whooping 1.2k (exclude indivudal singers) list.. haha hmm .. am i the one who find that GOGO MANIAC is nice? lawl.. also Angel beats OP, its starting to get into my brain .. especially the remixed one.. hmm which is

Ernest .. don't watch it yet.. this one need to wait until you damn absorb into it.. then you start watching and you shd feel the epicness of it =DD

Hey.. thats not the end .. right now , im learning this piece.. hmm only manage to noobly covered 40% of the song .. except the middle part which is kinda crazy.. but i believe my love for this song shall prove that this is yet another possible piece to learn =DD

with that.. night~

omedetou!!

2010-06-08T17:47:00.003+08:00

みなさん

おめでとう！　みなさんは　Japanese immersion Trip　の　メンバーです！

Japanese immersion Tripは　１０月９日〜２０日に　なります。だいじょうぶですか？
だめな人は　教えてください。

Japanese immersion Tripの最後の３日は　みんなで観光（かんこう）をします。
大阪と京都について　しらべてください。　みんなで　計画（けいかく）を　たてます。
そして、日本語もがんばって勉強してくださいね。
ホームステイで　たくさん　日本語を　話さなければなりませんから。

Japanese immersion Tripまで　あと３ヶ月です。
がんばって準備（じゅんび）していきましょう！

Yeah.. got accepted to the JIT =DDD
Woohoo.. this means im going to Japan THIS YEAR FINALLY .. unless there is an outbreak of H10N20 or some typhoon strike, earthquake and aftermatch of earthquake, berserk otakus killing people .. or whatsoever..

9th to 20th Oct, hmm exactly before my Sem 6, hopefully it wouldn't clash with my attachment..
hmm while writing this post, i already finished 2 tests which seems very easy.. follow the common test guide and you probably know everything.. unless you realli sleep in class...

tml paper is INS, to be frank.. i juz started to read them after 6 weeks.. yeah wasn't paying much attention in class so gotta chiong in 1 day.. luckily "close-perfection memorisation" run in my family.. so i can actually memorized tons of things for quite some time =D

chiong ah~!!
thx for all those jiayous message and msn's which keep telling me to "GO AND SLEEP"
now i know how it feels for people when they been told.. lawl

It's all over

2010-06-04T23:22:00.003+08:00

Most assignments were handed up and my stress load is as if being dumped into Indian Ocean.
More or less, i'm kinda free right now, especially 2 weeks of pure chionging and late-night sleep which reached 3am and it's kinda wtf for me.

On the other, the commServ T-shirt is done.. especially since it a damn last minute thing and everything got dumped onto me. apparently i did know some IT or photoshop and managed to get them out of this shitstorm.

Forget about works and all those which i promised myself not to mention after 5am today.

Today, went to one of my hideout which is at the convention centre. i was there and sawing that everything got arranged nicely.. and there is no one there.. except that the door toward my hideout is widely open, as if welcoming me.

Behind the door was another door. the entrance to my hideout. The only place where i could actually play piano peacefully without anyone disturbing. Recently, had been going there frequently, especially after school. Yeah.. it's all dark, quiet and pure silence as there is no aircons.

Right in front of the wall is the black piano and it's leather seat. Yup one of my favorite "decoration" ever. With that, just put down my bag and laptop , closed the door and start playing.

Yup.. i dunno why, i rarely touch a piano .. but still it seems that i realli love to play on a piano. the dynamic , the loudness which keyboard nvr beat it. It's juz seems so perfect(except on my skills)

With that, i played over 1hr over there before getting out of that room. Yup, there is 2 wall and it's backstage .. and rows of mirrors and unused toliets. Definetly scary when you go there during daylight, however.. more or less, im already gotten used to that place.

For those who will be taking the common test in CC tml, hope you all will do very well especially i play a "charm" for that area hah.

Hah days are as fun as ever , but something is still lacking in my life.. maybe is her? still .. i couldn't know why i couldn't play that piece for her .. even during then.. it's not that i never played before.. but that moment.. my finger jus stucked.. when image of her appear..
what does it trying to say? i couldn't know.. that was also when my phone ring and .. yup the sms which kinda make me abit -.- too ..

i don't wan to think so much anymore.. i juz wan to keep playing and playing.. even though i couldn't play it .. but i will still trying my best to continue .. i dunno what had gone wrong wif me.. i realli dunno ..

blah.. im in a state of confusion right now.. =____=
nothing make sense ain't they?

maybe it's an escape.. but all i wan is to drown myself in the music..

2010-06-02T19:11:00.002+08:00

interview was funny =D

i wonder how i went past all the security and venue without anyone, yeah maybe is i wear like them.. then piggyback into .. then piggy back to lift and also into the department.. upon entering, juz went directly to the incharge even though i dunno who is it .. hah must be fate =D

the interview is quite enjoyable and funny especially on how i was trying to sell myself and my previous work experiences.. they also tell me what is the rough job scope down there.. hmm it's desk bound without msn/internet.. so it might be a problem.. but i'm fine with it , especially since i choose it so there is nothing to regret over it..

hmm .. was told to learn linux VI editor and SQL .. hopefully my linux knowlegde would help me..

till the end of the interview .. when they ask me whether i have any question for them..
i asked "is there any good food here?"

lawl .. lmao but then this isn't the end .. asked couple of lmao qns as well.. hah but it's okay.. seems fun =D

with that, interview ended with happy people =D

2010-05-31T01:40:00.002+08:00

Common Test is coming, and seriously i don't place this in my priority chart yet.

What's more important are friends right now.. yeah lots of people are having craps
Especially those who need to hand in their WISP essay by TML ..after spending like 3 straight days to write them (yeah im not exluded as well)

People sleeping late also made me sleep late as well .. lol
but it's fun staying up late haha...

anyway the main thing in concern right now is my friend who relationship didn't get better. realli JIAYOUS for that.. this period of time when CT + study week clashed.. and these crap happened.. its realli crappy.. but after this period.. im sure everything will be settled!!! jiayou rx!!

GP on the other hand, was slacking after 1 day.. lol i think get cocky sometime.. cuz finished quite alot in 1 day.. on the other hand.. still got projectile + multiple enemies to settle.. shouldn't get a PROBLEM =DD

Anyway.. today went to Karaoke with kenneth , tobi , sean and 2 other ppl.. surprisingly, even though im not a nana fan.. but 60% of the ssong there i sing is nana one =____= shinai duet with someone is realli great !! WOOOOHOOO!!! Eternal Blaze too ..=D

crap why am i talking abt nana.. some fanboy gonna kill me.. for some reason, someone get me to sing Skill- JAM Project as well.. yeah that song which i didnt listen much before.. but YB and MARCUS keep singing that=D so it's somehow in my head liao ... WE WALK INTO THE SPACE OVER THE FUTURE... or was it like that? xD

Tons of lmao song liek dango kazoku .. and some lmao Enka song lawl

yeah.. we do sing alot.. and i still cant sing alone btw.. =____=

wooohooo!! tml .. another day of battterrrruuuu~!!

(:

2010-05-28T19:31:00.001+08:00

My mom's handwritting and drawings =)

にて～

2010-05-27T01:01:00.003+08:00

Yeah.. i want to take a break, but i can't..
there is still so many things coming up..

luckily these are stuffs which i like to do.. if not i dunno what to do with them
there is something about me, i always endure them till the end of semester and drop them off

Currently listen to one of the song by Kotoko .. which started of with 2mins of lalala~ just different variations.. for some reason, it just feel so peaceful and calm.

containing only her voice, nothing unneccessary ..
lalalalala~ lalalalala~ lallalalalala~
lalalala lalala lala ala lalalaaaaaaaaaaaa~

Followed by the tinkerbell and piano..
yeah simple song like this.. enough to relieve me

haha.. of course today are fun.. especially when i had my 10% CA =___=
realli WT is sometime fun , something fked up lol
but still overall im still okay :D

Hmm.. basically tml will be short and sweet HEHE
NIGHT GUYS!!

本とは今日の夜はすごく長い、
いろいろが考えて。。
今は寂し？
もう。。一人がならない

君が会いたい
君の声が聞きたい
君が抱きしめいたい
君の日々、今でもずっと
君の幸せは僕の。。
君の笑顔だけ。。
いまでも、何も変わらない

神様が居るんだたら、
いっぱい願いが華成たい
誰もがいない。。

smiles (:

2010-05-24T21:04:00.002+08:00

smiles (:

haha .. today was random especially when i came into the class 30mins late and i was told that the class was dismissed.. so basically i came for nothing..

went to canteen striaght to have my lunch and the oMg soursop ice which taste so sweet until it's so sour.. realli the expression on haryono face was like >___< haha mine also the same..

dang.. i swear that yong tao fu is realli nice and cheap =D

hmm.. INS lesson got delayed from 2.00pm to 3.30pm. So basically went to MMA M03 class to help them in their programming.. yup syntax and syntax which made me kinda wonder how to do it.. but managed to help my friend finished his 3 weeks assignment within a day.

M03 really is fun and with people keep shouting here and there.

InS is kinda teaching us about physical hacking and stuffs liek that.. tml will be on practical on resetting admin password using DOS.. seems interesting =D

hah basically my course right now is to spend time to make a game =D

guh

2010-05-23T15:54:00.003+08:00

At this point of time, rx have the every right to scold me.

Really sorry about that, sorry to suddenly just flare my anger to you haha.
Well, all i could say is that i'm sorry and yeah you probably wouldn't get involve in this shyt if you didn't chat to me. But neither way, i don't want it to happen.

This isn't the first time, i made people pissed.
The previous time was at darwin, pissed him so much that he wanted to bash me up.
Kah beng , you really sucks. especially when people actually try to offer you help and yet you shun them off angrily..

Of course, they are not the only fews.. i've looked back at most of my conversation log recently. All i could say is that, im sorry to give you all such dumb and insensenivty replies.. especially to brice.

For those who really concerned about me, well currently im stuck at doing something. I couldn't even know what's the problem are .. but i really knew that some problem is really coming to me at 102388 kMps and gonna blast at me like some crap.

before i even start my ranting.. i realli think that no one would be able to help me since it's really get technicial .. too technical as i can say. It's like programming and only the coder know what and hows their own code works.. and i don't really have the patient to explain it to everyone. So just leave me alone...

For GP, ermm im kinda stuck onto some sprite editing and arrangmeent .. got no fricking idea on how the bounding rectangle actually works and how it's affect the sprite update. fyi, the assignment haven't start but im actually started to write down the game design and concept + some coding + feature..Yeah, my ego is big that i wanted to try to something which i never learnt. But that's kah beng, im been doing these all the while. Even if i fail.. i love the progess of doing something really unique. My grade will be affected, but i don't care..

6ED : hmm 1st presentation is over and i done a pretty good job but the assignment is coming.. well that can wait since i already know which topics im going to fight on before taking this module

WISP : same as above.. but wif less confident

WT : screw this fking modules.. it's no better than self-learning it

commservice camp : ohmygawd.. this is a killer.. could someone tell me what's the fking point of putting down age, student id and course down? It's served no purpose.. i swear im going to exclude them .. waste of time to write them down ..
for the food stufds.. i haven't settled yet and im left with 30 days before the actual camp =___=. yeah thank for putting me down for this camp which i got no freaking idea..

and yeah.. it's realli hard to contact ppl .. especially when some fucker haven't replied me yet after so many time... TO HELL WITH THAT!

BBQ : ermm .. sorry that i didn't go but im glad that i didn't go.. =D

Tomorrow will be monday.. yeah another meeting which i must see whether does it help or not.. yeah, sorry if my words here aren't nice.. but too bad.. these are truth .. take it or leave it _|_

No words can express this...

2010-05-23T11:54:00.004+08:00

>__<

seems like i found a violin god =D

crap blog?

2010-05-20T23:42:00.002+08:00

recently.. someone say my blog is full of anime, stars and weathers..

yeah sad to say .. it's is cuz im not someone who going to write some motivation essay , life-changing experience.. or whatsoever..

im kah beng, a normal yet not normal teenager living in singapore.. and its one damn boring place.. well well not much events compare to thailand or tibet or gaza streets or wheresoever

still my daily is as interesting as ever..

had my osaka trip interview with kaori sensei and it went pretty well.. at leats i can fully understand what she is talking haha.. not bad.. thumb up for me

had some proper lunch in makan place with meat, vege , egg and rice.. yeah healthy enuff to recover all those thing im been missing out lately

badminton for 2 hours and running around the tracks haha.. pretty healthy lifestyle..

wrnt to melvin house for keyboarding and Wii .. and yeah can't believe i lost the fight against him due to him using some loli-character call "Roll" which pwn me upside down.. so yeah.. loli win

right now.. tons of stuffs which have been settled.. and life's good right now !!

YAP

2010-05-19T18:45:00.002+08:00

Yet Another Philosophy (YAP)

My dad bring this up after my mom took like 30 mins to tell me to eat my dinner.

He said, when one's is eating, never think that it was taken for granted.
One should happily eat it when no complaints and make sure he is gratitude toward it.

He said, the moment we are borned, we already own so many favors from everyone.
Imagine what happened in your daily morning?

Early morning 7.30am, your mom wake up up (your already owned yr mom a favor)
Had breakfast prepared by your mom,
You quickly change your clothes and dump them so your mom can wash it

At the bus stop, you were waiting for bus and broad it. (you own a favor from the driver who drive you to school)
You tapped yr ez-link (yr parents' money $$)

After that, you alight at your school and made your way there under a nice pavement and road built by many construction workers

It was so hot and you couldn't bother to climb the stair.. so you took the lift. (who built it?)
You reach there early and have your lesson by your lecturer. (you own lecturer now~)
Sometime, you dunno what he is talking about, so you asked your friend..(you own yr friend now)

With that, everything ended and you went for lunch at makan place with your friends.
Heading to your favorite kaki fuyong stall, you bought it and bring it back to the table you sat (parents $$ + stall keepers)

After hogging the seat for so long, you decide to leave and head back to class (cleaner come and clean all these for you..)

Back in class, your lecturer start his long long lectures till 5pm =___=

Days are so long and you couldn't take it.. so you head toward the bus-stop and go home for your dinner

The whole lists is so long that i dunno what to type.. too many things to list up if you wan me to type in details..

Feeling guility?
No worries, do remember to thanks whoever helps you along the way.
A simple THANK YOU meant alot to them.

a THANK YOU to the bus driver, realli made them love their job
a THANK YOU to the cleaner, made them feel that its worthwhile to do their job
a THANK YOU to the lectuer, could make you have a higer grade for your modules
a THANK YOU to your parents, could increase your pocket $$ :P
a THANK YOU to those who read this, could make you all come back and read again =D

THANKS!

18 May 2010

2010-05-18T23:45:00.002+08:00

Today marked the end of AMKFS mentoring
session today was actually what it suppose to be .. playing around with them and making them happy...

tons of fun especially sawing those quiet kids actually got so hyped during games.. its kinda heartwarming to see that. of course, those twins are cute even though they don't realli played much , but they do enjoyed hah..

simple games like "blow wind blow , forest fire hunter.." are so fun despite playing it over the years. Stuffs like that wouldn't get bored huh? At least for the kids , who are having so much fun

Or was it, the older the people grew, the less happier they get.
Seems like that case especially when people demands more and more yet they didn't know what exactly they want.
However, for me. I just want to make people happy, that the least i could do.

Today marked the end of 6 months of amkfsc mentoring.
The mentoring which i keep telling myself whether i should continue or not.
No doubt, i was whining and ranting about it... about how unorganised it was and how disappointing it was

But right now, i do miss the 50+ bus stops as well as stuck in the terrible jam while going there.
The fun we get there, the experience we get, the bond we get from there.
Really make me think differently

What if im wasn't there, will they be affected?
I think it will.

Today also marked the end of their exams and they already told me their exams result.
9/100 , 9/100 , 31 /100 ,16/100
They did better during mentoring though..
How was that for you?

I asked them whether did they did their best?
They answered and with some doubts of course.
But grades isn't what i want to look at,
i prefer their well-being, yup nothing beat grade more than a caring family and friends and doing what you like..

Of course, they a bunches of talent people especially when they are good in arts and others aspect of life.

With that, i wish them all the best in their life!
AMKFSC Mentoring 09/10 !!!

sick

2010-05-17T22:46:00.000+08:00

wah.. dunno what happened..
having runny cold and heaty body =___=
gg liao.. i think kanna flu .. =___=

hope i can tahan tml .. my body is kinda we.. i know hows my body have been doing
as well as what type of lifestyle i have for the past few weeks..

good luck for me ):

2010-05-16T18:53:00.002+08:00

Makino Yui in ponytail is >__<

been to her blog to update myself as i rarely read it recently.. tons of changes...
was it her or what.. somehow the photos of her having korean food does make me want to try the kimchi soup with tofu , vege >__< 美味いそ！！

yeah congratz for her making into NHK Anison SP #3, thank yongbin for the info!!
日時：6月7日（月）
開場：午後6時　開演：午後7時30分　終演予定：午後9時30分
場所：NHKホール（東京都渋谷区神南 2-2-1）

how i wish i could actually fly there and watch >__<
somehow.. this sort of remind me of how's beautiful her first live in singapore was, first to get her autograph and manage to chat with her and telling her how great her performance was!

arghh.. if this year got another of her performance.. i will definetely buy the first class seat again =DD
stuffs like that.. dont hesitate to think one...

ゆうち頑張って！！　Ｖ（＾＿＾）

Dad

2010-05-15T22:37:00.002+08:00

"Instead of rushing your everyday life or things, we should actually slow down our pace and look at stuffs" -Dad

Kinda cool stuff to say by my dad especially he saw how i rush my life recently. Telling me to slow down and look at life with a slow paced view. Of course, he is someone who enjoys doing his hobby and his tons of fengshui which i hardly know what;s going on though.

He added on that fast paced life strain your mind, causing it to work faster and faster till you burned out one day.
Instead of rushing for a solution, he told me to sit down and spend time to look for it.
To look for a solution which solve the root of the problem.

Haha, with that i should spread this to everyone. Hoping that you all can really enjoy your life no matter what.

Been slow isn't that bad afterall

sadasd

2010-05-14T23:14:00.002+08:00

With every step fell, i learnt from that mistake and march forward

Things are getting better except for AFA club which seems to be under attack by JTC lol! Of course, we been stealing and gathering too much attention ever since it was created. Nonetheless, we will fight back and this time we get our own room.

Something aren't going good for me.. i asked myself that how long will this last? 1 week? 1 day? nah.. its last less than a few hours or minutes.. no time to be bothered by it.. Yup, postitive thinking is what shaping me to be like today!

anime.. yeah i had been missing out these lately.. but im watching them right now like what i usually do for my friday night. That's apply for everyone as well.. don't stress yourself too much.

Problems are like math equations
You can't solve it even when you were given 1000 years..Solve it by asking someone for help
Like math equations,
Giving up doesn't solve anything

With that.. i shall nag somemore...
if need anything or need any help .. or you juz feel like ranting.. feel free to rant / chat with me (:

recently

2010-05-12T23:10:00.003+08:00

more coding and hacking..
life seems to be good right over here
despite having tons of meeting from mentoring and community service's camp planning
CommServ camp monopoly seems to be really fun especially that it's funded
and planned by those experienced ones

recently.. stuffs on the ACC side seems not to be good
even though i dunno anything or heard anything from them
esp they love to keep things to themselve lol..
things might get better according to what they say
but i dunno whether was it true or not

knowing that something is going wrong
yet you can't do anything to help them..
the feeling really sucks..
but what most important for them is that they must cope with this period of time

right now..
its kinda relieving to hear that it's being resolved and stuffs like that
not knowing of anything yet.. hearing them being solved is rather relieving
im not sure whether is it a bliss not to know too much or not
knowing something which you dont like is kinda ):

it's wednesday now and
tomorrow will be another 3 hr days where i couldn't know what to do
feeling lost and drifted slightly
what could i actually wanted to do?
was it a sheer impulse or was it something i "WANT" but not "NEED" to do

attachment list is out
and 80% are banks with high pay
yes.. they might be high pay or slacking
but what i want is experience..
the problem with banks is that its is very limited.. and boring works
its might not be true .. but i wanted to take a challenge
no doubt, im been slacking all the way for god damn year
time to make a change
a change which change me for better

Proposal Daisakusen - Ashita Hareru Kana 明日晴れるかな

2010-05-09T11:27:00.001+08:00

The long awaited time have finally arrived

Firstly HAPPY MOTHER DAY!!!

Ashita Hareru Kana 明日晴れるかな from Proposal Daisakusen

This is my favorite piece from my top-drama, Proposal Daisakusen. The first JDrama i've watched and it's changed my life alot.

The title, 明日晴れるかな, mean "WIll tomorrow be a better day?"
OF COURSE IT WILL BE GREAT FOR EVERYONE!!!
(since im the one who played it right xD)

Dedicated to :

My Mom : Happy Mother's Day!! Actually she heard it like over 100+ time so her days will always be GREAT and HAPPY!!

J : Don't worry, time might be harsh for you right now, but tomorrow will always be a better day for you, just like how dawn break after darkness. wish you 每天都开开心心过日子(:

HT : xoxo~ Ain't life great for you at this moment xD. But still the power of this song will greatly enchant your day by 300%

Wan Ting : Nothing will come out of nothing! Hah all the best for you do! Wish you to be happy , enjoy everyday to the fullest!!

ZhiYong : Give yourself a pat on the back, you've already done all you could to make her smile ;) Don't worry so much especially since you already did it with no regrets.

Grace : I'm not sure how's you lately, but im sure you can cope well like others ;) Wish your everyday to be great! Miss those time together xD

Huishan : Don't go clubbin too much with huiting xD Just joking!! Final Year liao, so enjoy it kay?

Li Rong : Don't tank everything okay? Don't keep everything to yourself as well! Sad days and happy days exist at the same time, but every tough time you get, you'll know that happy time will be next ;)

Anji : Cheer up! How can you be a bouncer when you;re not happy heh.. Rmb the most imporant thing which you really want her to be. No doubt, you already making her happy! Cheers!

Brice : Smiles for your own sake, i got no idea how you feel or what you trying to hide. But don't do that, if sad just cry or rant. Don't explode internally. No doubt, time might be harsh but look forward okay? Tomorrow will no doubt be a better day (:

Yong Quan : Ain't time so good for you right now? Watching drama and playing game in class. But still let's work hard and strive for a better tomorrow

RuiXiang : Hmm relationship and all sort are going extremely well for you until that there is no need for me to dedicate this to you xD. But Studies wise, work hard hor~!! Cherish her !!

Yongbin : 16 weeks of Intern, but things are going well there for you ;) Your days seems complete but hey it's not completed without a gi*l right? Get one soon xD

SP - Story of Split pants

2010-05-09T00:47:00.002+08:00

Today was having the fun bp-np mentoring orientation camp

SP = Split pants which i splitted my pants while palying captain balls earlier.
It's pretty funny but ps of course.. blah still continue playing the game despite suffering from that lol... yup ..might be caught for public indecency lawl!!

still .. that didnt deter me from continue to play hah.. even though girls there were laughing but ahh heck.. juz treat it like im going to swim =D

plenty of fun games and yup.. the main objective is fulfiled as everyone get to bond together.. (in clinque or whatsoever~)

after that.. was tons of debrief and something which i dont feel like posting here ..(not now)

after that went to holland v for dinner with them .. but somehow was there realli late and yup .. wasn't able to have dinner with them though =/..

wish J to get well nao~ yup time for her and everyone else to take a break after their scary sleeping time which keep increase from 11pm to 1am to 2am to .. i dunno when .. =__= yeah its weekend and its is to enjoy =D

THANK EVERYONE FOR THE ORIENTATION !!!
WITHOUT YOU... THERE'LL BE NO FUN~!!!